I’m afraid for our future
I really am but I want this
I guess this is commitment
I want to do all in my power to be with you
You don’t understand how serious this is
Because you’re not serious half the time
When you’re with me and when I talk of suicide or demise.
You hate it when I speak like that
Here’s the thing
I’m a wreck
And you have to deal with me
I’m pretty positive that you don’t know what love really is
But I intend to teach you that
It’s not a good thing that I’m your first
I rather you develop and work out some things
But you’re not my first
And my first and I have worked out a development
I am a trustworthy, loyal, and honest friend of yours.
Aside from being yours.
And that is what pushes me to try and save you
Save you from stupidity
She’s afraid of me
And afraid of what I’ll do
I understand that
I honestly don’t know how things are going to work out
But if we’re meant to be we’re meant to be
When I first met your family I thought it was odd that I felt so welcomed
As if I was already a part of it
And it was just as easy to feel disowned from it
I’m working with my mind to try and figure out a solution
I want to be with you and I know you want to be with me
I’m an inspiration to you
And you’re someone important to me
I want to teach you
Regardless of the relationship
You’re a good girlfriend
You’re putting your all into this.
I can see that you’re trying
I know that you think it’s hard
But you really do want to be with me
And I want to be with you
So much I’ll go through any ritual that I need
I never thought about it
Commitment
With anyone else but her
But this is now
And this is how
I have to jump in and observe
When I place myself in society
When I become a part of it
I pick the things I want
And get what I can out of it
In this case though
I don’t know what to choose
I’ve done my best
Now I just have to jump with this blindfold
Into the shark pit
If I move they’ll bite
So I’ll do what I can
And make my strike
I love you
And I will do anything I can to be with you
This is a choice that I think over and over
My thoughts
So cluttered
I love you
None the less
What do I chose
To quit?
Not a chance
I’ll do what I will with what I have.
I love you. I hope you understand.
