permanent price ✷ alex karev

028. it's hard to get around the wind

"it's hard to get around the wind"
alex turner

" it's like you're trying to get to heaven in a hurry
and the queue was shorter than you thought it'd be
and the doorman says, "you need to get a wristband"
you've got to live between the pitfalls
but you're looking like you're low on energy
did you get out and walk to ensure you'd miss the quicksand?
...
stretching out the neck on your evening
trying to even out some deficit
but it's sabre-tooth multi-ball confusion
and you can shriek until you're hollow
or whisper it the other way
trying to save the youth without putting your shoes on
looking for a new place to begin
feeling like it's hard to understand
but as long as you still keep peppering the pill
you'll find a way to spit it out again
and even when you know the way it's gonna blow
it's hard to get around the wind
i can hear you through my window
but i'm never quite sure who is who
but they want the world on a dessert spoon
it always sounds like they're fighting
or as if that's what they're about to do
it might not hurt now but it's going to hurt soon"

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season 3, episodes 11
six days pt. 1

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there was a fact that eleanor was beginning to recognize: the unusual had become the usual.

bombs in body cavities, traitors from new york, doctor's getting shot in the trauma bay, lvad wires getting cut, your friend's fiance dying--all these things that weren't supposed to be normal.

all of these things that shouldn't happen.

well, they happen all the time.

maybe it was because she hadn't really lived as a proper adult back in new york, but this wasn't something she understood before moving to seattle.

she didn't quite understand how actually terrible the world was most of the time.

but now she did. she got that now. it was loud and clear.

because dead fiance's and their multi-million dollar checks were not the end of it like eleanor thought they would be. she had expected a break between that and the next disaster, but the disasters never end, do they?

because meredith had a pregnant sister she never knew about, george's dad was admitted, and cristina had been acting strange for weeks.

but it didn't end there.

pregnant sister?

pre-term labor and emergency surgery the minute the baby is born.

george's dad?

cancer.

cristina?

turns out she had basically been burke's right hand for weeks. but surgeons don't just need their right hands for support, no, they need their right hands for everything.

the unusual had become the usual.

but there was another fact that eleanor was beginning to recognize: when the whole world is falling apart, it's a lot easier to blend into the background.