permanent price ✷ alex karev

030. ripples

"ripples"
beabadoobee

" please don't make me hide
i've been putting up a fight
what's the use of it now
when i get pulled down?
anyways, i've been hiding my expressions
you can't blame the reflections
and the ripples on the ground
i might as well have drowned
so i'm keeping busy
work twice as hard as you
want you to believe me
that i can pick and choose
you said you'd let me drive your car
as long as i'm with you
then you'd wait till we'd get far
to tell me that you'd be gone soon
feels too late right now
i've been holding back
'cause i'm afraid that i'm too loud
six feet underground
i feel alone again
stuck between my friends
i guess i'll figure my way through them
not sure how i'd do it
but i'm sure the people will listen
as the water glistens, then i see my reflection
so much clearer "

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season 3, episode 15
walk on water

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eleanor and izzie stood in the hallway sipping on their morning coffee's. eleanor hadn't slept. again. she could use all the caffeine she could get.

"you okay? you look like crap." izzie asked.

"thanks." eleanor rolled her eyes.

"i'm serious, are you okay?"

"i'm fine. i just didn't sleep well." eleanor told her. more like hadn't slept at all.

"i was taking a bath." they overheard meredith telling derek.

"that's not a bath. i know what a bath looks like." derek argued.

"drop it!"

"look, your mother--"

"drop it!"

"your mother--" derek said. "look, your mother was lucid and she said things, and now she's--"

"gone! and everything's back to normal. it's not a big deal." meredith told him.

"yeah, except she's having heart surgery today." he pointed out. "hey." he grabbed her face softly, "do you want to talk to the chief? i know you have the triage thing, but he'll give you the day off."

"stop. i do not need rescuing."

"you would have drowned in the bathtub had i not been there." 

"i'm a surgeon. i do the rescuing. you are not my knight and shining whatever." she told him.

"so we're gonna fight because i pulled you out of the tub?" he asked.

"you have a place. you could sleep at it. and then you don't have to pull me out of the bathtub. you're everywhere, all the time, saying things."

"this is the happy ever after part. and in the happily ever after part, the guy is there all the time, saying things, and the girls love it." he said.

eleanor couldn't help but want her happily ever after part. she didn't see it anywhere in the near future, though. she was stuck in whatever the bad part was called in fairytales. she didn't know if she'd ever get out of that part.