You and me - Chris Sturniolo

Therapy?

(This is a few weeks later just so you know)

I walk into my room and Chris is sitting on my bed on his phone

He looks up at me and smiles

"Hey" he says

"Hi" I smile back at him and I walk toward him

I stand beside him on the side of the bed and his arms go around my waist and he hugs me which I flinch to

He looks up at me

"B can we talk" he suddenly doesn't seem so happy

"Sure, about what" I go around and sit with my legs crossed in front of me

"B...you flinch everytime I touch you" he starts

"Actually, everytime anybody touches you, I noticed two weeks ago your avoiding physical touch from anybody" he says

I sigh knowing a conversation dating back to 'the night' would happen sometime

"I uh" I look at my hands and begin to pick at my skin once again

I try to swallow the lump in my throat and I don't look away from my hands afraid if I look in his sad eyes ill burst into tears

"Do we..uh have to talk about it" I look at him just not in his eyes trying to strain my tears

"Of course not" he says

"Can I hug you" he says sounding sad

I nod and he comes closer and wraps his arms around my shoulders

I hold onto him and close my eyes to get any loose tears out without him seeing

When he pulls away his hand sits on my shoulder the same way..Alec had done.

I jump and he pulls it away

"I'm sorry" Chris says sounding sad

"It's not you I just" I stop myself because if I tell Chris what happened he'll end up trying to kill somebody and I'll be in tears trying to explain everything

"It's fine" he says and I cough into my elbow

"If you can't talk to me, you should talk to somebody, anybody" he says

"Could you talk to Madi or maybe alahna? Any of your other friends you trust?" He asks

I shake my head no

"Do yu want me to find a woman counselor or therapist for you, it's okay to want someone to talk to, especially if it's somebody you don't know" he says

"Um sure" I cover my eyes and look down in my lap

"Okay" he says kissing my forehead and leaves

I wait til I hear the front door shut, which mean he went home

He stayed with me for weeks on end to make sure I'm okay

He even skipped out on the past few vlogs and car videos to be with me

I grab my phone and i make my way to the roof

I use my flash to get to the couch since it's dark already

I sit down and reach under the couch to grab one of my vapes

I take a hit and look out at the city

I think about everything and of course feel the lump in my throat that I feel everytime I'm alone because anybody could do anything at any time

It's ashame the world we live in because you never know if your actually safe

Is Chris serious about this therapist deal?

I don't even care

I just want to be alone with my thoughts for now

I look back behind me around the roof at the tent thing that you usually put deck chairs under

"I really hope u know what I mean because I forgot what it's called, it's like 10 feet tall or smth and has a pointed cloth roof on top and the rest is open)

I think about sleeping out here because there are walls you can velcro onto the sides if you want

I get up and grab three walls from a container we leave up here that has old toys and patio things

I put them up and leave one wall open

I go downstairs and find the blow up mattress and inflater and bring those upstairs

I plug in the compressor to an outlet and inflate the bed

I bring the air compressor downstairs and put it away, I go into my room and grab a fitted sheet, a bunch of blankets and pillows and haul those upstairs

I decide to bring my camera and charger to film if I want

I also brought snacks and bunch of water

I set up the bed and make a nest for me to sit in

I look at the bed happy with my choice when I remember that our clothes line that is faced on the opposite side from the tent thingy

I go back inside and grab my projector, a white sheet, my laptop, and some fairy lights that plug in so they don't die

I set those up and wrap them around the base metal that makes the entire tent

I switch those on which lights up the entire space

I then set up my sheet where I can see from my new bed spot and clip that on

I plug in my projector I got from Amazon in and connect it to my laptop and play the Lorax

I run and get in my bed and take a picture and post it to Instagram

( too specific of a scene so pretend you posted)

Comments of your post

User: IS YN BACK?

Nicolassturniolo0: where are you?!
>on my roof

User: hope your doing well yn
>tysm bae

User: is she ok she's been off of everything for so long
> I'm okay :)

Matthewsturniolo0: I'm jealous
> we should do a movie night sometime
>YES WE SHOULD LIKE TOMORROW OR SOMETHING
>sounds good to me we can get our friends together

I think about having everybody here to do the movie night and remember I have an old tent just like this one I can set up next to it to make it 2x the size

I watch my movies and decided to film a short video explaining my disappearance and everything that the viewers should know. Not everything though.

Eventually I fell asleep to another movie.