Our Love: The Ups And Downs..

Message 8

Although I would rather talk face to face I know you prefer this method..Angelo what's really going on?? And don't say nothing because actions speak louder than words nd I've been feeling like something going on hence me keep asking what's wrong, I'm not gonna assume it has anything to do with me but if it does like everything else I hope you know you can come to me about it, about anything.. Look if you don't want to say anything I will... I never wanted to break up with you I truly didn't I mean why would I when I'm happy but idk maybe I was being parinod or something but I kept feeling like you just wasn't as happy as I was and I would do anything for the ppl I love even if that means sacrificing my own feelings and I know you do the same you just tend not to be upfront about it whereas I try to be very clear about it... Look in being honest a huge part of me is still pinning after you hard... What can I say I love you might be in love with you nd I can give two fucks if that scares you because it scares me too, nd me being in love with you isn't sealing our fate nor is it me proposing forever its seemly how I might feel, nd I've always expressed how I feel, that being said regardless if I'm in love with you or not your feelings matter!!! Simple!!! I promise even though it will hurt and I might cry although you'll never probably see it 😌😌, if you want to move on I will understand completely and never hold if against you... Now I will be jealous of whoever you do start talking to because im completely aware of the awesome person they now have in their lives, I will be opinionated because I refuse to let anyone take advantage of you... Nd last night I know you spoke the truth I am grown and I can do whatever I want but when I say that cut deep it really did, I mean here's the dude that came in a chance my life made me fall for him not even attempting to fight for me..lol guess I watch too much romance movies... It hurted like pissed me off too... Mostly because you slapped the truth in my face, we're not together anymore lol frfr...nd the you text me the message about Terrell lol that pissed me off even more, because what you Dont get and see is that no matter what I feel towards Terrell it doesn't compete with what I feel towards you..NOWHERE NEAR.. I really thought that was obvious but I guess not, nd no matter how many times Terrell tries to sleep with me or makes me laugh or comes to see me, or texts me it will always feel like shit compared to chillin with you, texting you, or laughing with you whether we together or not SIMPLE.. Nd this long as hell but I just got a lot to say... But what my main point is that even though all of this is true I know how to let go of things nd ppl I love for them even if its not what I want, and im completely willing and prepared to do that with you to a degree because I refuse to let you go completely... You best friend for life nd I don't care what you say 😛😛😛.. But I need you to be upfront with what exactly it is that YOU WANT screw what I want nd everything else simple WHAT YOU WANT... Because I'm in lingo here when it comes to you nd as much as I would love not to stess it nd whatever happens happens our relationship means too much to me to leave it up for ifs nd maybes.. Sooo whether you send me a equally long text message or talk to me in person we need to talk, well you do cause I think I've said everything, but if I remember something I'll text you!!! Promise it'll be shorter than this one 😊😊