Lost In Confusion (On Hold)

The Dinner

She came in and sat down on the chair across right in a front of me, Jason sat next to her, she suddenly looked at me, I looked away.

I cannot show her my shocked face. I can't be cool with this. I actually kissed her boyfriend! No shit. This is frustrating, I wanted the ground to just open up and swallow me whole.

I felt Jake nudging me I looked at him and he had a puzzled look on his face, I just tried as hard as I can to fake a smile and look down at my empty plate.

In a little while Sophie came out of the kitchen and placed the food on the table, and for the first time in my whole life I felt relieved seeing food. I just wanted this dinner to be over already but whenever I look at my watch time seems to go slower and slower, in these moment I wished my parents were the over protective to call me and ask me to go early home. But no, they aren't.

"Comon darling, dug in!" Sophie told me while filling my plate, I smiled up at her and looked down at now, my so filled plate.

A crab salad, curled fries and fried fish. I smiled, and looked up to see the table filled with my favorite dishes, pasta and more other salads!

I didn't fake the smile this time, and my smile was not addressed to anyone sitting on this table. I smiled to my happy soul.

I couldn't hold myself in the chair anymore and got up.

"Is she in there?" I asked

"Yes" Jason answered me understanding who I'm talking about.

I smiled and ran to the kitchen opening the door and throwing my hands around the old woman standing next to the oven.

"Maria!!" I exclaimed,

"Oh my goodness! My little Minna! Look at you all grown now! Such a beautiful young lady too!" she beamed at me.

Looking at her, I realized how much I've missed her. I missed this motherly look in her eyes, her warm smile!

Looking closer now, she had small wrinkles forming at the top of her head and around her lovely smile, her brown hair, now spread among it white curls, she grown old.

I remember when she used to take me in her embrace when I was younger and used to come over at the boys with my older brother.

She sat me down once while breading my hair, she told me how beautiful I was and how bad she wanted a beautiful daughter like I.

Snapping out of my memories I hugged her tighter once more and then let go, I looked behind me and saw Jason holding a fork in his hand and staring at us with a little smile

"I...uh... fork. Yes I need a fork..." And then he was on his way out when Maria called him.

"Jason"

He turned and looked at her nervously.

"Yes Maria?"

"Is your idiot of a girlfriend out there too?"

He sighed and rolled his eyes, "Don't call her that. And yes she is out. Now if you excuse m-"

Maria cut him off "Come here and hug me you little idiot I miss you too" she opened her arms while still holding me tightly.

I looked at Jason but drifted my look to the floor, Maria left with Jake and his dad. After they left they ordered her to go with them.

I saw Jason's vans while he was closer and Maria hugged him and I together, she hugged so tightly that the connection between my skin and Jason's that I ignored all day have been done.