wolves of the woodland

Chapter 14

'i'm no one importent hm' siberia said annoyed

'you are not no one just he can meet you later okay' i tell her while sitting down to relax not caring that nicholas was still here i was still mad at him  "why are you ignoring me" he asks i keep focused on my book "notice meeeeeeeeee" he says i keep focusing on my book 

he then does something i did not expect he gave my neck a lick i lift my head up but don't look at him "why won't you look at me?" he asks, i don't  know but most likely the memory's of my ex how horrible he was. no i can't show emotion ever again they make me weak

"please look at me" he says sadly. no can't show him my broken eyes i take a deep breath and glaze my eyes over with a amused look "mhm what do you want" i say to him "for you to look at me" i turn my head to look at him "there ya happy i need to head to sleep i am to help with food tomorrow in the morning" i tell him in an annoyed tone . i am sorry nicholas i wish i didn't have to do this but i can not let my guard down for even a moment "who hurt you so bad that you are so cold" he asks with simpathy filled eyes

 "no one ever hurt me "i say choking back tears  i knew that i was never moms daughter i was taken in during the werewolf war i let my guard down back then and i regreted it i had to act like her child my whole life  and my little brother i can't be weak i have to be strong for her

*Flashback start* "start song here"

"baby girl come here mama has to go away for a little while okay i need you to keep your brother safe and well" i heard my mom say

"okay mama" i say happily not know yet the pain i was about to experence 

hey there little sunshine how do you do 

theres a great kingdom waiting for you 

as you lay your tiny head, dream of the world they are gonna love you

their sun will return. little sunshine, little sunshine, let your radiance show 

little sunshine, sunshine let your kind heart glow

i start to weep 

though the shadows may close in you will stay strong,

you will stay strong, your little spark of love

will cast out the dark!

know that your not alone the moons at your side

together you will clense the world

you'll always be my pride!

Flashback end

i was about to cry why would siberia show me the  most painful memory in my life, no stay strong mercy 

"good night nicholas" i say not looking him in the eye i walk over to my bed knowing i won't sleep tonight "good night merc" he  says softly as he walks 

-------------time skip to midnight---------

"hey alpha" i hear miyana whisper "yes miyana" i whispered in reply 

"your pups need you now" she says as calmly as she can i run to where they are to see them coughing very hard 

"they won't let anyone touch them" she says i see my pack and a few pack doctor in the room i walk over to them "hey there guys" i say as i reach out my hand to them which they cuddle next to imeaditly "just separation anxiety they should stay with me" i say finnally "oh good we thought something was very wrong "the cough on the other hand should be treated as soon as possible" i say finnally "what do we need" one asks "just a few cough herbs and what i have been giving them for it" i say "this has happened before 

"yeah my guess , that is why their mom left them" i tell them they nod " come on carnios" i tell them only to see nicholas standing in the doorway "move please or i will make you" i say "okay" he says he looks like he just me fearful i take i a deep breath and gloss my eyes over with 'everything is fine' look and walk to my room "the moon goddess loves to torment me doesn't she" i say while looking out my window and i then set my babies on my bed and i lay next to them " i love you guys so much i hope you know" i tell them before drifting into slumber

A/N

sorry for a smaller chapter then normal anywho i hope you enjoyed, this chapter talked a bit about her past and why she is so broken apart

edited