NEPTUNE BURNS

fake [lunar] love

I keep faking love like if it were a mystic trying to quell thirst with tarot cards shaped in torn stars / keep kissing the rain at night as my body curls into an earthbound crescent moon fashioned of flesh / giving away my heart as it thrums a plea of protest / hit my head against wall and wall till I dent my fingers into my scalp that has pulverized to smashed brains / I am waiting for the sky to realize I am a piece of its expanse and have lost my way home / and I keep faking this love with weary eyes and crooked teeth mimicking love confessions till I understand all girls every learn is how to give themselves without asking for anything more/ coursing through our veins are set the needs to care for lovelorn parents to hold a sibling and shield them with our bodies till we match the craters of a fading moon / I hear my mother whisper "kiss me" to my father at night see as he gives a quick peck and close my eyes to how she looks as if it were a bee sting with the taste of honey / I've learned to find love in the wounded forgetting my skin is the one being bruised the one in the fire forgetting I am no star to enjoy and name and claim / forget I am all moon with curves and crashes but no shattering / I keep faking love praying like a hypocrite who kills but feels absolution at repentance / keep waiting for the sky to open her warmth and realize I have grown tired of being my mother's daughter who is stone and flesh kissed into a world where my home is kept from me

Kallibmatic sleep easy angel