Midnight Thoughts (Short Stories Collection)

Angel

When will I see you again?
When can I hold you in my arms?
You were right there for a few months then you were gone.
You leave us so soon. So soon that I haven't held you in my arms.

How are you?
Will you know my voice when I see you?
Will I recognize you?
Will you let me hold you?

I blame myself for the loss.
I blame myself over and over until I don't have the strength to blame myself anymore.
That's our thought. That's our everyday thought when we think about our loss.
That's what a mother of an angel thought every single day.

A woman who lost a husband is a widow.
A child that lost his parents is an orphan.
What do they call a mother that lost her child?
Nothing...that's how painful it is.
There are no words that can describe the pain.

So when you know someone who lost their child
Even on miscarriage or stillbirth, please don't tell them IT'S OKAY.
Because it's not okay to be left behind and to lose a precious one.
It's not okay to mourn everyday and have a hole in your heart that can't be erased.

Our babies are too precious to be put on Earth so God asked them to go back to heaven.
Leaving us mothers who were longing for them.