Out of the Darkness~ The Guild Leader Chronicles Book Five

Chapter Four

Out of the Darkness

Four

Brianna

As Lexie's Second, my priority should always be making sure she is taken care of, that she has everything she needs, but how can I do that when my every thought comes back around to Dalton? He's been my mate for exactly nine days, and although he's supposed to be my perfect other half, we have absolutely nothing in common. It irks me to no end that he's almost all I can think about. When I was little and dreamed of what my mate would look like, Dalton wasn't who I imagined at all.

I have had a clean and easy life, up until recently that is. Dalton though? His fingernails are dirty, and the amount of grease he puts into slicking his jet black hair back has got to be enough to lube a car. From what I've been able to listen to, in the brief moments we've been in each others presence, his life has been nothing but drama since he was a young teen too.

Having already known he wasn't a good person before I met him has definitely clouded my opinion about him. As his new mate, I should give him the benefit of the doubt, but he left Keegan when he was most vulnerable. And I always thought my mate would belong to a pack, not be a Roamer. Someone who has ties, loyalty to an Alpha, the allusion of what it means to be apart of something.

But nope. Not my mate. Not Dalton.

Other than to complete our bond, we haven't had sex. To be honest, I could go without for the rest of my life. Dalton didn't care if I was pleased when we were finished. I even had to spell it out for him that it was my first time and needed him to be gentle with me. It was like he didn't understand why I had staved myself for him; knowing I would meet him one day. He wasn't rough, but there was no feeling behind something that was meant to solidify our wolves finding each other.

The whole time Dalton was on top of me, his head was buried into the curve of my neck. His hot breath would suffocate me as he put in little effort to truly get to know me. The entire experience lasted maybe five minutes. Not exactly how I wanted my first time to go.

When Valerio hurt his head, and Keegan took it among himself to protect the diamond while Valerio was in the hospital, I'll give Dalton some credit. He did stand guard of Keegan, along with Uncle Septimus, while he carried it, but simply standing next to Keegan isn't enough to forgive him of everything he did. Dalton, to me, is nothing more than an immature little boy. He's not the man I thought my mate would be.

My Dad says to give Dalton time, but I don't want to. Yet, I also don't want to die. Even though our bonding is complete, I can still reject my mate. Doing so would kill both of us within a matter of days instead of it taking months, but I don't want to cease to exist just because of who I'm supposed to be with. Now, instead of rejecting him, I just avoid him. I don't know how long mates can go without seeing each other, but I plan to make sure he leaves with the rest of the packs. Valerio doesn't want the packs here, and even though Roamers don't have an Alpha, they still have to listen to their Guild Leader.