the soft boy ~ J.H.

~ chapter 6 ~

it was around midnight and most of the people had left but just to my luck a few were spending the night, dixie, charli and tayler were staying with me and bryce, kio and jaden were staying with anthony.
dixie and charli were passed out on the couch, tayler was sat on the floor next to the couch on the phone to his sister saying he's spending the night, kio was passed out in the spare room, jaden and bryce were outside for some reason and anthony was stood in the kitchen looking at the mess...

'tonight or tomorrow?' anthony questioned me talking about the mess that was now the downstairs of our house, i wanted to say tomorrow but i know i won't want to do it while i'm hungover 'you can head to bed i'll today it's fine' i responded
'you sure sis? i can help' he said 'it's fine, night bro, love you' i replied 'love you too' and with that he headed upstairs, i walked over to tayler 'dude, you good?' i asked 'ye just tired' he said 'can you take char and dix upstairs to the spare room next to my room then you can go to sleep in my room' i asked hoping he would say yes 'fine' he responded with a huff as he stood up and picked up charli, he walked upstairs and i walked into the kitchen and got out a bin bag, i was throwing away all the glass bottles, red cups, broken shot glasses, and a load of other stuff when bryce and jaden walked back inside
'what are you doing?' jaden asked 'cleaning what does it look like' i responded sarcastically, he rolled his eyes playfully 'well i'm going to bed, where's the spare room that kios in?' he asked 'up the stairs, 3rd door to your right' i said and he smiled as he walked away, once he left it was just me and bryce downstairs, he started to help me clean and we finished in silence, i was hungry so i made myself a bowl of cereal and so did bryce, i was sat on the counter and bryce was leaning on the fridge, we were still in silence until bryce broke it...

'sooo, you and jad-' i cut him off 'no' 'why not, you know he likes you, he picked you over mads' bryce said with an 'open your eyes and stop being stupid' tone (ifykyk) 'okay hold up, whats there deal, mads' i asked avoiding the rest of the statement
'mads is his ex, they were the 'meant to be' couple and everyone in a relationship wanted it to be like there relationship, it was all going well till mads cheated on him with- well ondreaz, jaden didn't find out at first, they started drifting as mads kept cheating on him and ondreaz kept his mouth shut because well he was dating addison and didn't want her to find out, eventually jaden broke things off with mads because they were drifting which was when mads flipped and told him she has cheated, ondreaz and addison broke up and don't have anything to do with eachother, jaden on the other hand didn't freak out, he slimply told mads he didn't care, he want numb of all emotion for a while' bryce explained, i felt terrible 'is he okay?' i asked, i'm honestly worried 'he is now yes' bryce said causing me to sigh of relief 'but come on jaden likes you' bryce said, i know what he wants me to say but i can't 'bryce i can give you multiple reasons why that will not happen' i said 'go for it' bryce said, at first i laughed thinking he was joking but he wasn't 'you're being serious- okay then, first of all, he's anthony's friend and i've said on multiply occasions that i will not date or hookup with one of his friends ever again, second of all, there is a reason i don't date anymore, it's called tony lopez'
just saying his name send shivers down my spine, god i despise that man. i guess i should probably explain why i hate him so much.
this could be sensitive content (contains talk about self harm, suicide, abuse and sexual assaults)
okay so before i was, well, a whore i was in a relationship with the one and only tony lopez, and ondreaz was my bestie, one day me and tony we're messaging and he asked me to send some cheeky pics and i did because i trusted him and we had been dating like a year, worst decision of my life, he screenshotted them and leaked them to the entire school, and i honestly wish that was the worst part, he also cheated on me on multiple occasions and disrespected my brother, by disrespected i mean bullied to the point where anthony wanted to end his life, i only found out when i came home early to anthony self harming, that night i called tony to talk and we were in my room, i told him we should break up and he didn't like that

flashback
'tony, i just don't think we fit anymore' i said to him
'you don't think we fit?, that's such bullshit morgan, i know you're just cheating on my you slut' he said
'i'm not cheating on you tony' and with that he hit me right across the face 'DONT FUCKING LIE TO ME MORGAN!!' i was petrified and instead of comforting me, he punched me in the stomach 'fine but before we break up, you have to sleep with me one more time' he said with a smirk 'tony...' i said scared 'this isn't a choice' he said as he ripped of my clothes and began to rape me 'keep your fucking mouth shut' he stated
end of flashback

sensitive content over
it's safe to say after that i became a bit of a whore, call me a slut and i'll become one and honestly i don't care what people say about me, i have no trust for boys anymore
'first of all, if you two really like eachother, anthony will understand, and second, tony was a dick jaden is nothing like him, come on morg' bryce said trying his hardest to convince me to get to know jaden
'bryce i'm sorry, but it's not anthony that needs to understand, you know him he won't care, but it will bug me forever, what if jaden is just using anthony to get to me, so far you are the only guy i've hooked up with that hasn't done that' i said and bryce smirked so i playfully punched his arm
'fine' he said as he walked out to go to bed, i also decided to go to bed, i went to my room and saw tayler passed out of the couch, i got changed and into bed and feel straight asleep