An Ocean of Thoughts

🔹stress

Don’t stress,
Do your best,
Forget the rest.
It’s easy to say,
But is there any damn way
To do it?

It’s hard to deal with all the stress
You get by all the expectations.
You gotta work without vacation,
Without time to calm down,
Time to figure out how not to get a burnout,
Not to cry every day.

I’ve got the feeling
I have nothing to say.
But I just gotta deal with it.
With all the stress, the pain
And the best of the day
Is the moment when I fall asleep.
When I come to rest,
Forgetting the stress surrounding me.
All these deadlines are keeping me alive,
‘Cause without I’d be nothing more than a dead life.
My heart is tired of being alone,
Becoming a stone in my chest.
I can’t see that way
All these life coaches say
They could easily show you, if you just pay.
To get happy again,
But you can’t buy happiness, right?

I cheated on myself by pretending to be fine,
But nothing is fine as long as this stranger controls my mind.
She looks like me, she talks like me, she acts like me, but I’m trapped in here and nobody sees, because she’s too good in pretending to be me.
She’s just a mascarade protecting me from getting hurt.
That’s what I tell myself every time
When she reacts, but I’m supposed to talk on my own.
Don’t trust her, her heart’s just a cold heavy stone.
But by now I can’t handle anything alone.
I don’t know if I’ll be able to handle my life on my own.
Ever again.