I've been crying..
ever since I was young I never knew how to deal with my emotions..
So I cried
Today wasn't any different, how the hell was I supposed to absorb the fact that my brother has always loved me?
I never knew.., I just replayed the hurt expression he had when he said
"I also have feelings you know"
I cried more
How could I hurt so much?, I of all people should know how rejection hurtsI guess Ahmed had knelt down and pulled me to his chest..he rubbed soothing circles on my back..
" Cry it all out.." he said in a soothing voice..
Somehow that made the lump in my throat get worse..
I sobbed so hard..Oh oh wrong move
I felt my chest tighten,I held tight to Ahmed's shirt as if it was the one to take away the pain..
I felt suffocated..
there's no air..
why is there no air?..
I can't breathe..
I started struggling for air,
taking sharp and troubled breath .
With every breath I felt like dying..
I guess Ahmed noticed the change in behavior, I felt him tense" Isqaar.. damn it! I think she's having an asthma attack " he said..
his voice sounded so far my head was floating..
I'm I dying?
Who is he telling..?
I guess I lost enough energy ..I couldn't fight the pain anymore nor could I keep my eyes open, my grip on Ahmed's shirt loosen. But I could feel him sweeping me off the floor.
I think he's taking me to my room, I felt my body hit a cool soft material.
At a point I didn't feel his presence beside me. After some time I felt my body being wrapped up in something warm, then strong arms pulled me up in a sitting position and leaned in someone's chest..Still I couldn't make out the sounds..
I just felt so light ..
my breathing muffled, like someone who's about to give up her spirit.
It won't be so bad if I die right now right?,
That's what I've always wanted right?,
Except not anymore..I don't want to die. I'm so scared.
With that I feel more tears running down my cheeks.And that soothing hand on my back is back.
I felt something on my mouth..Inhaler..
I was struggling not to die so I'm sure I couldn't even process how to use it anymore.
That's when I felt a hand support my mouth...I took a sharp intake and the hand again shuts my mouth so that I couldn't exhale it
.
Another arm was keeping me upright.After few inhales ...I gained a bit strength, but still couldn't open my eyes..
The hand let me go, and I guess I was now leaning on the bed head. I felt something prick my arm.
Was there a doctor?
I wondered .
Then I was pulled in again, my head leaning on a..
chest..?
that did it. The injection made the pain go away.. relief washed over me.
I felt weak , but alive.
I felt the soothing circles on my back." Breathe Isqaar, you are doing great.."
I heard now voices
becoming more clearer.
I cuddled more..
This was really warm. And nice..
I now took steady breaths..and I now tried to open my eyes.
I sniffed .. rubbing the tears .
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My Twisted Mafia
Romance*formerly as Noble deed* Then I felt his lips on my forehead.. and when they say that when your crush kisses you,you feel the fireworks, slap them hard... They're lying. Because what I felt was like the whole Afghanistan shifted in my body, bombs...