It Hurt's Instead

16

"We need a night out" Anna says turning to face me

I've practically been zoned out with a pen in my mouth for the past few minutes.

"Mila" Anna shouts bringing me back to reality

"What?" I ask carrying on typing on the laptop

"What are you doing" she asks sitting down

"Well I'm trying to write but I've been stuck on this for the past two hours"

She takes one look and sighs.

I can't tell is she's sighing because it's really bad.

Or the fact I'm really not focusing anymore.

She saves what I've got so far before turning the laptop off.

"Right come on something is clearly on your mind"

Yeah but at the same time nothing.

It's like one second I wish I could turn my brain off and the next it's to quiet.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm really ok or not.

It's like everyone else is just care free while I'm here wondering if I'm crazy.

As I feel Anna pull me into her side my mind is still to quiet.

"I can't help unless I know"

"I'm fine"

I look in the mirror and I can by her face she wants to push.

But at the same time she also knows not to.

"Well when your ready I'm here"

"So who's the lucky guy taking you on a date" I ask changing the subject

"So his name is Matt" she gets up before looking in the mirror

"He's really sweet but considering I have a stomach here I don't know anymore"

"If he really likes you he won't care about a bit of stomach"

"And how do you know this" Anna turns to face me

"I'm just saying"

"So there is a guy, is he the one you was fucking"

"Anna for the love of god shut up my parents are down stairs"

She giggles like a little kid before belly flopping onto my bed.

"Oh come on I need details I'm your bestie for a reason bitch"

"Your two years older then me"

"Ok then big sis to little sis I wanna know"

I just laugh as she sits up staring at me.

Before I can even say anything the door knocks and Sapphire walks in with Ryder.

"Sometimes I forget they hate how close we are" Sapphire sighs