darling | alice in borderland

chapter 21

A/N: returning to this book for the third time 🗿 I've abandoned this book far too much yall-

but I'm really happy i finished a chapter ^w^ thank you guys for being patient with me, and please enjoy this chapter

"don't listen to her" chishiya had said, but it was so hard not to

those boys you felt guilt over for months...they were just pretending? they were dealers?

and mira, she somehow knew about your situation? how...how did she know?

you didn't alert anyone of it, you didn't tell anyone, did you mumble about it in your sleep? did everyone secretly know and just didn't tell you?

mira smirked, the look on your face told her everything, it was working

"don't you want to know the truth of this world? or do you already know-"

"you don't know anything" you said "you don't know the truth, you're just playing with us, aren't you?" you looked up at her, but for a odd reason your head felt heavy

mira sighed amd got defensive "i do know, but you don't, do you? that's why you're panicking, you don't know a thing...tell me, are you prepared to hear the truth? can you accept it?"

you ignored her and sat up, stumbling a bit but chishiya stood and stopped you

"it's not worth it" he said, his brows furrowed in worry at your sudden wooziness

"let's play the rest, I'm done with my tea" you said, glaring at the woman in front of you

"you're in no stable condition to continue the game" she sighed "and i thought we were making progress, miss y/n, you've been doing so well recently, but yet again, you've fallen back into your delusion, do you even remember my name, miss y/n?"

chishiya looked at her, for once a look of confusion settled on his face, what the hell was she on about?

you stared at her with your own confusion "m-mira?" you spoke with hesitance

she hummed "that's good, but... you're not seeing the real me, are you, miss y/n?"

what...?

"the world you see...is not real, it's just your imagination, is it not?" your breath felt like it was knocked out of you as you gasped, the heaviness of your head...felt like it was going to explode as you gasp for any air you could get

"you're...lying! shut up!" you breath out, this was real, it was real, you were real...right?

"miss y/n..." she sighed "have you not, for even a moment, thought this was fake? games like hide & seek are children's games! do you seriously still believe this to be your reality?"

"shut up! what is even going on?!" you panicked, breathing getting heavier as you placed your hand on your head, chishiya stood closer to you, holding your arm in his hands in a attempt to calm you down

he couldn't speak, as when he was about to, mira caught him off

"miss y/n... do you truly believe this is your actual reality?"

you didn't even know what to say at this point, you could feel your head getting fuzzier, and little white spots appeared around your vision

did she...put something in the tea?

"miss y/n?" mira smirked slightly and sighed "it looks like we'll have to go about this another way...you remember my name, but do you remember anything else?"

you unconsciously shook your head, it felt like you weren't even in control of yourself at this point

she sighed once again "miss y/n... I'm your doctor, Mira Kano, a psychiatrist, you are receiving counseling from me, you just... don't remember it"