Breaking Point

Chapter eight

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"And all of a sudden I felt really tired.
Like the world has drained me for everything that I had." - Quotes 'nd Notes

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TW - throwing up

💫 Maya 💫

I am gonna be sick. I need to leave this table. I zoned out all the words a long time ago.

I stand up and run away.
I need a bathroom.
I won't make it to my room in time, hell I don't even know where my room is.

This house is too big, it's disorienting. I run through the hallway, opening every door I see in the hopes of finding a bathroom in time. 

After opening four different doors, the fifth is a toilet. It's a small space but before I can take it all in I fall to my knees and bend over the toilet. 

Like the dam has broken, everything I have eaten the past few days comes out again. I throw up and throw up, it feels like there is no end. 

I don't know how long I have been throwing up when I feel a presence behind me. 
"It's okay cariño, get it all out." The voice says while moving the hair out of my face.

When it feels like I can't throw up anymore, I sit up and let myself fall back against the wall. It's then I see who has been holding my hair back, Mateo. 

Looking past Mateo, I see everyone else standing in the hallway. They all look at me with pity smiles on their faces.

I don't want their pity, I don't deserve it. 
I don't deserve any of this, they are being way too generous and nice.

All of a sudden, everything comes back to me, every change that has happened the last two days and every word that has been said to me. 

I can't do this.
I can't do this anymore.
I don't want to.

I just start crying, I want it to stop, but it won't.
The tears won't stop. 

Before I can stand up and go to my room to break down, I feel strong arms wrapping around me. I don't freeze, this is not like his touch, this is comforting and nice. 

The person takes me on his lap and I just sob into his shirt.

Sob for everything that I knew, turning out to be a lie.
Sob for how tired I am.
Sob for all the words I was too afraid to say these past years. 

And the next thing I know, everything turns black and I'm out like a light, still in the mystery person's lap. 

♚ Álvaro ♚

Everyone tried to get her attention at the dinnertable but it was like she was in her own world. Next thing I know, she runs away and into the hallway.

I sit there, flabbergasted, not knowing what to do. While Mateo almost instantly runs after her. After a few seconds I get back to my senses and run after everyone, the other boys almost there already. 

When I get there, I look through the door into the small, cramped space with two of my babies inside. Maya on her knees, throwing up everything she just ate, and Mateo on his knees behind her, keeping her hair out of her face. 

We all just stand there, not knowing what to do.

After a while, it seems like Maya is done throwing up, she falls back into the wall and just looks at all of us standing outside. My escaso amore (my little love), she doesn't deserve this after the day she's had. 

Next thing I know, she starts sobbing. I want to get to her but the little toilet room is made for one person at a time, not two and definetely not three. Let's just hope Mateo has come to his senses and will do something.

Just as I thought it, Mateo wraps his arms around Maya and puts her on his lap. She wraps her arms around him and keeps crying into his chest. 

After a few minutes of listening to Maya's crying, which felt like a stab to my chest for every sob that came out of her, it started to die down. 

She fell asleep.

All the boys and me still stand in the hallway, stunned and not knowing what to do. Mateo starts to slowly stand up. When he stands up, I see the way Maya is hanging onto him like he is a lifeline. 

Mateo takes slow steps in my direction and gives her to me. It's not going smooth because of the way she doesn't want to let go of Mateo but she didn't wake up, fortunately. 

"Don't tell her it was me." He says, looking me right in the eyes. Why does he not want her to know he helped her? He should be proud of how he handled it, I know I am proud of him. 

"Why not? You did good." 
"Just don't, okay?"
"Okay, I won't tell her it was you. I'll take her to bed. Goodnight everyone."

I hear a chorus of goodnights' from everyone and start walking up the stairs. When I reach her room, I put her on the bed and try to get away but she keeps clinging onto my shirt.

I don't want to leave her, and she clearly doesn't want me to leave either but I know she will freak out if she wakes up in a new place and with a person she barely knows in her bed. I pull away and close the blinds. I shut the door behind me when I leave.

She might be my daughter, nothing will be able to change that. But I am not her father yet, that title is earned and I will do everything I can to get it.

A/N - ahhhhh I love Álvaro <3

Do you want Maya to get a love interest? Because I can't decide yet so I would love to know what you think about it :)

Love you all <3