You thought you got better
But you didn't
You were just distracted
Now that you've had more time to yourself you've realized
You weren't lovable
How could they even like you?
You've found new things to hate about yourself every day and it's impossible to believe any compliment someone gives you
But nobody has seemed to notice
You sat at your mirror staring at yourself in the reflection
Hot tears streaming down your face as you studied everything wrong with your appearance
No matter how much you seem to love yourself on the outside
It'll never be the same on the inside
You didn't notice someone walking in
Pav:
"Baby! Ive been thinking about you all day- are you okay?"
You heard pav say
You quickly wiped your face
"Oh- yeah- I just uhhhh...yawned"
You said trying to play it off
But he looked at you with such love and worry
He wrapped his arms around you like you were a fragile flower
You couldn't help it
The tears wouldn't stop
You tried
They wouldn't...
You stood there with your arms dangling by your side as he hug you so gently
It made you feel loved...you've never seen or felt anything like this before
He took your face into his hands and wiped your face away
"I love you so much...you're perfect and what anyone else says is a lie"
Miles:
"Mamas I got a Lego flower set-...what's wrong?"
He said concerned as he immediately sprung into action and wrapped his arms around you
You sat there sniffling and letting out strained quiet sobs into his chest
He pet your head giving it small kisses every once in a while as he softly rocked you
Spot:
"Youre out of dish soap- darling..?"
You didn't want spot to pity you...after all...he had it way worse than you ever would
His face was taken away from him
You thought he was gonna yell at you and call you selfish like your parents would when you were younger
But he wrapped his arms around you in such a comforting way
You couldn't hold your emotions any more
They poured out all at once
And spot was there comforting you through all of it :)
Hobie:
"I learned a new song...luv...are you crying?" He asked stepping closer to you and wrapping his arms around you
You sniffled and buried your head into his chest as he let you cry on him
Miguel:
"I'm supposed to stay lat- y/n are you alright?" He asked concerned as he wrapped his arms around you
You nodded but he could tell you were lying
He ran a hand through your hair and wiped your tears away
"It's okay Amor...I'm here"
42 miles:
"Mami earlier I found a cat...are you crying? What's wrong y/n?"
He said wrapping his arms around you
All you could do was bury your face into his head and sigh heavily
Disappointed that someone saw you...so weakly...
"I'm sorry...for being weak"
"Mami...you've been dealing with this for so long...youre not weak at all"
Noir:
"Hey y- what-" he didn't know what to do
You hugged him desperate for some comfort
His body was cold
He hugged you back hesitantly
(You're not falling behind in your love life
You're still young and have so much life to live
Struggles are temporary and suicide is forever
Keep holding on
People love you
Even if it's not as much as you think
You're worth all the love you're getting and you don't need to change yourself for someone to love you
I love you guys even if I don't know you
My messages are always open 🫶🏽🫶🏽🫶🏽)
