Ayanokoji POV
After the introductions we all went on our merry way, some people were quite happy for the new companionships and it made me glad.
I made my way towards a convenience store, a normal place one can go to in Japan for services such as food, stationary and other such items available for convenience. It is a new experience for me, I hope my first encounter with a store like this will not be bad.
I made my way inside, taking a look of my surroundings, taking note of the chilled environment and a few people around.
"... What an unpleasant coincidence." I heard a voice from the side, Horikita again. What is she doing here?
"Oh, hello Horikita, you were shopping necessities?" I asked as I took note of Horikita taking a shampoo from the shelf, the cheapest kind
It seemed she noticed how Miss Chabashira's words had more meaning, I am glad that someone other than me noticed!
"hmm, you didn't introduce yourself in the class, may I ask why?" I asked Horikita, curious of why she chose to withhold her name from people who she will need to cooperate with for the next 3 years
"There are a lot of reasons I could give you, but should I give a simple explanation? Even if I introduced myself, it's not guaranteed that I would get along with everyone. Rather, it would've probably created problems instead. If I don't do the introduction, none of these problems occur. Right?" Horikita said as I was left confused
"Why would you want to be liked by everyone? It should be more than enough to have a few trustful people with you so you don't have to go through everything alone. After all, being alone isn't enjoyable if anything atleast in my opinion" I said as Horikita scoffed at my response
"Such a response with a voice like that? It's almost laughable. I prefer being alone, It is how I choose to live." she responded to my explanation as I felt something, I didn't like it.
Horikita didn't seem to understand that being alone is a pain that is so unbearable when you truly feel it. She likes alone time but doesn't understand that she has no people here to support her as family, and if she doesn't make any friends, then she might up completely alone with no one to interact and even rely on. But I can't let my personal feelings cloud my judgement here, It's her choice and not mine to say that she is wrong
"Alright, I understand. I respect your choice but I do recommend you talk to some people so you can atleast be cordial with them." I answered as she narrowed her eyes, my emotionless eyes and the distinction of my words with my face make her confused
"Why are you suggesting I make useless kinship with people like that? You seem like someone who doesn't associate with people either" she said as I looked at her for a second before replying
"It isn't that I don't want to make friendships, It is just that I don't know how to." I explained to her as she looked further confused at my reply
"What exactly do you mean? Have you never had any friends or people you talked to in the past?" she asked as I remembered everything, my sharp as ever memory trying to look back and remember the person I used to be, no the person I am
Even if I pretend to be kind and helpful, I am still the monster, the demon. But I want to change don't I? even I do not know my intentions anymore
"No, I was uh homeschooled. So I never had the chance to make friends until now" I said as I hoped it would help my case
"What about your parents? clearly they weren't the best bunch if there child can't even make a friend" she said as the rude comment of hers made me reevaluate her. Her social skills were as bad, no worse than mine. I can still talk to people without outright insulting them atleast
STAI LEGGENDO
Kind-koji
FanfictionAyanokoji kiyotaka, a boy who has been training and studying his whole life, but now that he has a chance to live a new and peaceful life, what does he want? "I really just want to see people smile, maybe learn how to smile myself to"
