Ayanokoji POV
I was going home after class as Horikita went ahead herself earlier due to needing to finish up some business of hers that I have no idea about
But it seemed that my life has no chance at being peaceful as I hear someone calling my name from behind, a voice I heard every day
"Ayanokoji!" I heard as I turned my head around to see Kushida, someone who hadn't talked to me since I met her on the bus
"Kushida? what can I help you with?" I asked, as she bowed down with extra energy and requested something of me
"Please help me be friends with Horikita!" Kushida said as I shook my head immediately
Horikita values her personal space a lot and isn't the type to accept friendships like this, I could try and talk to her about it but it would only do more harm than help.
"It would be a bad idea for me to interfere, Horikita values honest friendships based on the person themselves and how they are with her, don't force it on her like you have till now" I suggested as she sighed
"I just want to be friends with her.... I can't understand what's wrong with having friends!" she said as I shrugged, she was still forcing herself a lot on the inside. Maybe I should say something
"Kushida, why aren't you comfortable?" I asked as she backed away a bit as she hesitantly asked
"What exactly do you mean?" she asked as I shrugged
"I told you on the first day, be yourself. I don't mind and would prefer if you were true to me and yourself" I said as she looked at me with her fake as ever smile
"I don't know what you mean Ayanokoji" she said with a smile as I nodded
"Ok then, take care. The offer to talk to me as yourself is open. It get's really tiring to act like someone you aren't" I said as she gritted her teeth
"OK I AM FUCKING DONE, WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM!? LET ME BE THE NICE KUSHIDA IN PEACE DAMNIT!" Kushida said as all the pent up emotions get released in a violent outburst.
I gesture her to follow me as I walk her to a quiet alley, it was near the dorms so nowhere dangerous but she was still angry
"I told you, I am not forcing you, I was just offering as I would figure it would be bad for you to keep it all inside and not have a good outlet for your emotions" Ayanokoji said as Kushida sneered at him
"WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU KNOW ABOUT ME!?ABOUT WHAT THE FUCK KIND OF SHIT I HAVE TO DO JUST TO GET SOME FEELING OF APPRECIATION AND BEING GOOD TO OTHERS"Kushida yelled as I kept listening, intently waiting for her to continue
I WANT TO HAVE FRIENDS, BE POPULAR, BE HAPPY AND APPRECIATED AND THE WAY I DO IT IS THE ONLY WAY YOU FUCKING RETARD. WHAT DO YOU KNOW ABOUT HAVING TO KEEP YOUR REAL SELF INSIDE JUST TO HAVE YOUR IDEAL LIFE HUH!?" she said as I mentally almost laughed
she and I are similar in that regard, but I bring my focus back to the task at hand instead and try my best to console her.... psychology books, don't fail me now.
"I understand Kushida, I feel and understand your pain. You want be seen positively appreciated by everyone when you feel like your true self can't get that kind of appreciation" I said as she looked at me like I said the stupidest thing
"What the fuck are you even saying? who in their right fucking mind would want to appreciate or support me when I am like this? do you even hear yourself?" she asked as if I was stupid but I shook my head
"No, people who learnt to genuinely appreciate you for who you are would. They wouldn't care how crass or how attention seeking you are, they would learn to accept you because they would know you were their friend. Tell me Kushida, what are some things you enjoy in life, simpler things" I asked as she was startled, why is it that I point out obvious things with people's mentality they react like that?
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Kind-koji
फैनफिक्शनAyanokoji kiyotaka, a boy who has been training and studying his whole life, but now that he has a chance to live a new and peaceful life, what does he want? "I really just want to see people smile, maybe learn how to smile myself to"
