Falling in love all over again

Chapter 16 : Effect

A double update for mah goofballs 🤍✨
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Prisha's POV
He loves me!

It was clear in his eyes! Anything or anyone can lie or blind us. But the unsaid tales the eyes tells can never lie.

But the fact of him loving me is affecting me.

I will not let it affect me. It shouldn't affect me. How can it not affect me?

He has all the things a girl will desire.
He is a billionaire, handsome and what not?

But the thing i ever wanted from someone is love and affection. And apparently he has all the qualities.

The way he handled me when I had a nightmare.

The way he accepted me even after knowing i would never be able to love him.

The way he calmed me down.

The way he and his little actions have started affecting me.

Today I saw something in his eyes that I feared the most....LOVE.

It was so clear in his eyes that it made me scared...what if he could see through my eyes too? What if he could read my eyes only to find that his actions are affecting me?

No. It isn't a good thing.i won't let it affect me. I love Rudra and Rudra only. 'what was the thing hukum asked for? Loyalty right? And this is how you are showing your loyalty?' my mind uttered.

Where is my life leading me to? It snacthed my parents, my brother. And the home that i thought would be mine was never mine. Baba loves me, bhaiya does so does di. Bu maa? I can't say the same for her. It was their family i ruined it. When will I have a home I can run to? When will I have my own family? I remember how baba and maa used to fight because of me. Baba Never liked how maa treated me. And it became the reason behind their fights and it led me to hide my emotions. I miss my parents. I miss them. Life can't be this cruel. Can it be? What should I do? Should I try accepting what happened with me? Or should I sit here, in my husband's house thinking about someone else who now has become my ex? Or should I blame my destiny for this mess my life has become now?

I was so lost in my thoughts when I heard someone clearing his throat.

I looked beside me only to find hukum sitting beside me.

"Aap soyi nahi?" He asked

"Neend nahi aayi" i replied and he looked at me.

"Koi baat hai Jo aapko pareshan kar rahi hein?" He asked as if reading my eyes.

"Nahi hukum- i was cut off by him

"Hukum na kahiye Hume. Biwi hai aap hamari. Haq Banta hai aapka humpe , hamara naam le sakti hein aap." He said and it would be a lie if i said i didn't melted

"Hukum- i was yet again cut off by him

"Phir Se? Abhiman. Abhiman naam hein hamara" he said and got a lil closer , he tucked a strand of my hair behind my ear. And i lowered my gaze from the intensity of his gaze.

"Abhi-m-a-an" i said

"Not like this try breaking it and then try to pronounce it. Repeat after me, Abhi-maan. Your turn." He explained.

"Maan?" I said looking up in his eyes.

"What did you call me?" He asked, his eyes glowed differently.

"Maan?" I repeated.

"Again " he said this time closing his eyes.

"Maan" i said with a slight smile on my face.

"Again" he said himself smiling

"Maan. Maan. Maan" i repeated again.

"Isha thank youuuuuu. You made me the happiest man alive on this earth." He called out for me, the last somebody called me by any nickname other than pri was my father. He used to call me ishu. My eyes filled up with warm tears.

"Wh-at did you just call me?" I asked as tears made their way out of my eyes. Panic rushed to him.

"Didn't you like it? I am sorry ,please don't cry " he said panicking. Instead of replying i hugged him, but instantly pulled out as i realised what I was doing.

"You made the happiest girl alive on the earth today. Thank you for calling me that!!!" I said, it isn't because he has now started affecting me, but it reminded me of my father.

And then i realised what I did just now! I hugged him without his consent. And he shouldn't get the wrong idea.

"I am sorry i hugged you without your consent" i apologized as i didn't want him to take it the wrong way.

"You stole the beat of my heart, the shine of my eyes, the breath in my lungs, the thoughts throughout the day. You stole me from myself, without even asking and Did I ever complain about that? You know what ? Even after knowing how harmful it is for my heart , i would wish for nothing else but for you to steal more. He said looking deep into my eyes making my heart skip a beat. I internally screamed at my heart for doing this thingy.

"Hum ek baar phir aapko bta rahe hein, haq hai aapka humpe. Us haq ko jatana shikhiye. He repeated gently keeping a hand of his on my either sides of cheeks. To which I just nodded my head making him smile.

"Thak gayi hongi aap. It's late we should sleep now" he said to which I nodded my head. He turned off the lights and laid on the other half of the bed.

"Come here" he said opening his arms i hesitated.

"Hum aapko bol rahe hein hum aapse pyar nahi karte, fir bhi aap hume aapne pass kyun bulate rehte hai?" I asked as i couldn't refrain myself further from asking this.

"Umeed pe duniya kayam hai, humne bhi bola hai aapko ki hum aapse pyar karte hein aur karte rahenge. Hume aap chaiye, pyar ka kya hai? Ek din ho jayega. Nahi hua toh bhi hum aapko kahi nahi Jane denge. Humara pyar hum dono ke liye kafi hai. Aap humari hai aur humari hi rahengi" He said as he scooped me in his arms and i was about to say something but he shushed me and gently patted my back until I fell asleep.
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This one was CUTE 😭😭😭😭
Bro I am so proud of myself for writing this chapter 😭👍🏻
So yeah this is it for today
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