3 am thoughts enclosed in a book >>Poetry

Recently

Recently I haven't been doing well

Your absence makes me so sick

It's really hard to act like I don't care

But I can't argue when I was the one who played the tricks.

Recently I saw your friends in the hallways

They give me looks that remind me that I'm guilty

I'm sorry I was the one who walked away

That feeling makes me wish someone kills me.

Recently I saw your mother today

She told me that you were doing wonderful

And I am so happy for you, I really am

I'm glad you found friends who are better than I am.

I know you'll never forgive me for what I did

I know you're doing so much better now

And just knowing that, makes me the happiest I've ever been.

I hope you meet me again, in another life

If so, I'll never commit such a crime

Of breaking trust and also our bond.

Thank you for making me the person I am now.