Opus

Apart

\\ old poem \\

There you are,
Just out of reach,
Scared, just like me,

Waiting for me to reach out.

You look into my eyes,
Full of questions, doubt.
That's just one fraction of a second – then you turn away
I turn away too.
But my heart stays with you
And yours, with me.
And that's how it's been,
Ever, for Eternity.

Sometimes, you give me your hand
I hesitate – and before I could decide,
You've withdrawn.
I never understand you,
And yet I find myself, in your insecurity, frustration,
In your striving for perfection.

I whisper my messages into the air,
I blow my kisses your way,
You do too
They reach me. Stopping me in that moment,
Making me hold on.

You're so close,
And yet so far away.
Guiding me with your eternal light

Oh angel! Who are you?
Why did you come to me?
Why did you come to stay?
If only to stay away?

In my dreams, you
Take me in your arms,
Enfold me,
And we're together...
But then the dream shatters
And we're thrown apart
Shaken, into the face of brutal reality,
A single soul – torn in two.
Craving for each other.

Thus we've been forced apart
In all our lives before.
Waiting, wanting, lusting for each other.

Thus we'll be,
For the rest of our lives.
Reaching out, in vain
An invisible wall between us.

And last,
In some other world
We'd be, finally, united.
I'd love you,
And you'd tell me how you'd suffered
Down here.
And you'd take me in your arms,
I'd wipe away your tears,
In the safe fortress,
I'd bury my face, my anger, my sorrow,
Your fears, joy, happiness,
Helplessness – souvenirs from a life before,
Spent apart.

At last, we'd be together,
Just like in my dreams,
And, in your arms
I'd be home.

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\\ the ones marked as old poems are stuff I wrote back in school, and I am too attached to the old comments to delete them now. I wish I had made a new collection when I started writing again but its too late for that now, oh well. \\