Stonehearts 9: Sapphire

Seven

To what extent should a person crave something he or she never tasted?

Because I'm still damn well salivating from that almost kiss from three days ago. Jesus Christ, he's like a drug to me. Though, I haven't had a taste of him, the pulsating need I have for that man is coursing through my veins wild and hot.

Why I am this attracted to him, you ask? Well, I can dump a mountain of reasons why I find him tremendously irrisistable. He's a living, walking, breathing fantasy and I would gladly live the dream.

I scrubbed a palm on my face. I'm not liking the way I lose myself whenever he's around. I don't know how he does it, he bares me, disarms me of my very core. And I can't seem to take him on. Hell, I'm known for my scorching persistence and solid attitude. An innocent looking individual packed with a bombshell of a character that explodes into a multitude of colors. I'm that someone with the hunter instinct, once cinched at something, I don't yield until I'm able to stake a claim.

And I forsake my own goddamn self for that since my 'hunt, lock, & kill' disposition is set into us ending with sheer sweaty bodies. My abidance of veering from him is useless either, because rather than walking away and ignoring the magnetic pull, I all but submit to lust and ram myself hard on him.

God, I wished he would really physically ram himself to me.

I'm turning into a sex craze maniac. I dropped my head with a thud on my table. This is going nowhere. I should be thinking how I will effectively and ultimately pivot from the raw and carnal tension between us. Hindi 'yong pinagnanasaan ko pa siya. Hindi 'yong ini-imagine ko kung hanggang saan aabot ang halik na 'yon kung sakali mang natuloy.

I need to have a peptalk with my brain and my vagina for they ae clearly in a disagreement. Dapat ang inaatupag ko ay ang problema ko sa business, hindi ang problema ko sa tawag ng laman.

I shifted my sight to my computer. I've narrowed everything down and it looks like the most appealing and smart move would be talking to Reid about his offer.

The banks aren't that bad but if Mr. Poker Face will place a better solution on my table then I don't see any reason why I would still pursue with the banks. Kaso ang malaking question mark sa lahat ay gaano ako kalakas para layuan ang tukso at kung may balak bang lumayo sa'kin ang tukso. It will be weird mixing business with pleasure. My gut, though, tells me we're on the polar opposites of the situation. He's been very persistent and pushy with me meeting him, factor in the sizzling sexual pressure he surely and openly welcomes. If that don't clearly flash 'I want you', I don't know what will.

If this won't put my clinic in awkward position, or worse, in jeopardy, I won't even double-blink or have second thoughts. I'd charge right into this temptation with guns blazing. Kaso hindi pwede. Kaya nga hindi muna ako mag-jo-jowa para wala akong ibang iisipin. Nakakalungkot man dahil pinagkait sa'kin ng tadhana ang masarap na pangako, ito ang tamang desisyon.

Pero shit, hindi ko akalin na darating ang pagkakaton sa buhay ko na masasabi kong totoo nga ang kasabihang 'ginto na, naging bato pa'.

A phone call distracted me from my pondering. Exhausted to even look at the caller ID, I swiped away just so I can get it over with. I'm not really in the mood to talk.

"Fire, naistorbo ba kita?" The voice is denizen to my ears, but the chances of her calling me is little to none.

Furrowing my eyebrows, I whipped my phone to check the name to verify my assumptions. I was right but still it bugged me since my mind zapped into a lone reason why she's connected to me in the other line. I wish I wasn't right, though. It's enough that he's been consuming my mind lately.