The Youngest Blade 🔪

Chapter 20 (A Broken Girl)

Anastasia Rosaline Blade's POV

I woke up with a pounding headache and feeling worn out.

The usual after a panic attack.

I was in my room.

I quickly got up which I regretted as I felt dizzy,when I remembered what happened earlier,

I hurriedly rushed and locked my room door.

My brother was trying to kill me.

My other brothers did not help.

Oh God they all wanted me dead.

The probably had no choice but to take me in once Sir got into the accident.

They wanted me dead.

I have to find a way to get out. I quickly took my bag pack and threw my clothes and all my necessary stuff in it .

I went to my room window and looked down. It was a 2 story jump.

I would definitely break my legs.

Honestly, I would rather break my legs then die.

So, I hesitantly opened my window.

I took a deep breath and put one leg out of the window.

"WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING?" I heard someone shout.

It was Xander, I flinched at his voice and tried to jump down.

Xander caught me and pull me back up.

How in the world did he even enter my room? I locked the freaking door.

"She tried to fucking jump out of her window" he shouted really loudly.

No I didn't. I was getting fresh air you dick

I heard many footsteps heading towards to my room.

Oh god please help me, my brothers want to kill me.

I used my elbow and hit Xander's stomach.

He didn't expect that and his grip loosened.

I threw my backpack at him and ran to my toilet before he could catch me.

"Im sorry" I said to him.

I kinda felt bad about hitting him.

Although he was an asshole and deserved it.

I locked the toilet door.

"Young lady open the door now or you are going to regret this" it was Elijah.

The boys were banging on the toilet door, I was honestly scared that the door was going to break.

"Open the fucking door Anastasia Rosaline Blade" oh no it was Ace.

I was terrified at this point.

"Please stop" I whispered.

"Stop fucking banging the door,she is trying to talk to us" it was Xavier who said this.

After he said that, the banging stopped and it was completely silent.

"Now Anastasia, you are going to open the door and explain to us what the fuck you were trying to do" Ace said.

"I can't, I'm sorry, I can't" I whispered brokenly.

"What wrong bambina? why cant you open the door" Elijah asked.
(baby)

"Im scared, im so freaking scared" I whispered.

My body was wrecked with sobs.

I bit my hand to not make any noise.

"What are you scared of?" it was Xander. His voice was soft and not like his usual rough and angry voice.

"Im scared of you guys, all of you"

"Roman tried to kill me. Im scared if I come out you guys are going to hurt me Im sorry, I'm sorry" I said.

A fresh batch of tears was making its entrance.

The boys were asking me to open the door or they were going to break it down.

I scoffed, they couldn't possibly break the damn door.

Roman was apologising.

Xander and Xavier were banging the door.

Elijah and Ace was shouting at me. 

"Useless piece of shit"
"Ungrateful brat"
"You dont deserve to be alive"
"It should have been you not your mom"
"Fat ugly bitch"
"Go kill yourself"

Words said by people in the past swarmed in my head.

I pulled my hair really hard and banged my head against the wall.

I stopped  when I realised something, they were all true.

TRIGGER WARNING

I should stop being a burden and kill myself.

Im going to be with my mom.

I went infront of the mirror and punched it.

I heard the boys shouting and banging on the door even louder.

I punched the mirror again.

The blood dripping down my hand were satisfying.

I picked up a piece of sharp glass from the broken mirror and cut my wrist.

"Im going to reunited with you mom" I said.

I cut and cut my hand again.

Sobbing loudly, while doing so.

"BANG" the toilet door broke opened.

Ace kicked it open.

I flinched at the sound.

A sharp piece of wood flew from the door and cut my face.

The boys stared at me.

I probably looked like a crazy girl.

With my puffy and swollen eyes from crying. Blood dripping down my face and hands. My hair was all crazy and broken glass surrounded me.

Xander quickly took the sharp piece of glass away from me.

Xavier restrained me.

I was laughing, I was crying.

Everything was messed up.

My emotions and myself,I was freaking messed up.

I wanted to be with my mom.

My brothers couldn't do poop bout it.

"I can finally see mama again. I won't be a burden anymore" I groaned out and lost consciousness.

Author's note
Hey guys i hope you liked it.

Thanks for the 2k reads.

Please comment and vote.

Constructive criticism is welcomed.

Anastasia is not overeacting. I purposely made her character like this. She is childish and dosent curse but is also very matured for her age.

Because of what she went through of her stepfather, bullies and John she wanted to end her life. It was too much for her, a 14 year old. She would rather kill herself then die by other people. She really thought that he brothers were trying to kill her.

Thanks for reading love yalls

Xoxo author Sel