Your Boyfriend, My Mate

. Nineteen .

"Everything alright with loverboy?" Chanel asked as I went to stash our phone back into the old shoe in which I had retrieved it.

"Yeah, we're seeing each other tomorrow." I admitted a little giddily, but my happiness was placed on the back burner as I instantly recalled tonight's events. "So...wanna talk about what happened back there?"

"Not particularly."

"Chanel, I know something's up." I pressed.

"Just drop it Evalina, there's nothing to  ring up again!" She nearly shouted. After a couple of seconds she returned to her normal voice level and continued. "The fact of the matter is that Luca Minicci is a philandering...man whore who doesn't worry about the later consequences, only the gratification of his current lay at the moment."

The words sounded strange coming from her, miss free love and flirts with every guy she encounters...not to mention she's had her own one night stands as well.

"But you're the biggest advocate of non-mates that I know, by all logical reasoning, shouldn't Luca be even the smallest bit of interest to you?" I bravely asked.

At this she jumped up from her bed, "the only thing interesting about Alpha Minicci is the fact that he hasn't contracted a sexually transmitted disease or something."

"I hate to do this to you" I nearly whispered. "But for the sake of Cesare and I, could you try and be civil when you're around him."

"Lina" she sighed. "I don't have to be around him...ever...What happened tonight never has to repeat itself."

I nodded, and it seemed as if the subject was dropped. I got into my pajamas and then laid down to rest for the night. After the lamps were cut off and we were both settled into bed a silence fell upon the room.

"Hey Chanel, can I ask you something?"

"Sure" she responded.

"So you're not a virgin?"

Once more silence surrounded us, but only momentarily "...and that's not a question." Chanel responded.

"No...but, What does it feel like?"

"It hurts." She confessed "...but only the first time I think it's mostly due to nerves and the lack of your body producing enough lubricants...But don't get me wrong, popping your cherry isn't all about the physical Luna...it's also emotional too."

I mulled her words over, I wasn't quite sure why I had even asked. Sure I fully expect to lose my virginity to Cesare SOMEDAY but not anytime soon, I think, I mean it wasn't like I was exactly planning this out.

Does one typically plan to lose their virginity?

"It also depends on your partner, if he's attentive to your pleasure and careful with the fact that you're new to it, then it can actually be good...plus considering you'd be losing yours to your mate...I'm sure the Mates Bond helps get you through the more 'painful' stuff...but it's definitely better the second and third time, then after that you learn what you like and what feels good and you can start experimenting."

I was glad the lights were out, her words had caused me to blush, I couldn't imagine ever being so brave as to try and "experiment" sexually with Cesare.

"I don't think you have to worry about loverboy" she said, "he's your mate...I hear having sex with your mate isn't like having sex with just anyone else, it's suppose to be special...I mean down right magical."

There was a slight sadness to her voice.

"Do you ever wonder what it would be like to actually find and be with your mate?" I wondered out loud.

I had always known the anti-mate Chanel (this was due in part to her mother's passing and her fathers grief, she never wanted to feel that pain). But something about the moment, even if it was only her last comment, had hinted at another side of her.

"Only recently the thought has actually vaguely run across my mind." She confessed. "For the slightest second I thought about what it would be like to be with my mate."

I thought about Chanel and what kind of mate she would have.

I couldn't help but smile as my imagination began to run wild with the possibility of my best friend having a mate.

He would have to be calm and not one who challenges her as she is too competitive. He would have to let her win every argument and not be too serious. He's definitely a suit and tie type, and he would have to worship the very ground she walks on. But being the daughter of an Alpha would require someone strong who can protect her if need be. But not too strong as he would also have to be loving and kind.

"I can't wait until you find him...it is going to be so magical and exciting." I sounded dreamily.

"I'm sure it will be very anticlimactic." She threw in.

I chuckled, "doubtful, I think it'd be quite the show as you would have to keep yourself from ripping his clothes off."

She made a sound of protest, "I can assure you that there was no sexual tension."

"What?"

"In my vision, about meeting my mate...there was no sexual tension, there was actually a lot of questioning myself and then sadness."

I shook my head, of course someone who doesn't want a mate would think meeting their mate would be sad. "Well I hope if you ever do find him you can at the very least give him a chance and not be too harsh on the guy."

"Goodnight Evalina." She sighed.

Something on my last statement had put her off, I couldn't help but wonder what it was particularly, but I knew better than to egg her on, it would only piss her off. "Good night Chanel."