The Villainess only wants to go home

Chapter 18 - Change

I tapped my finger on the edge of the window frame, watching how the trees past by us. It was boring as hell sitting there doing nothing. I wanted to listen to the radio or jam to music, but carriages don't have radios or Alan walker neither did I have my phone to play subway surfers, temple run or candy crush. Damn I love those games, I played it ever since they were released.

How do these people live without phones or Wi-Fi? I'm already dying inside.

How many times I have I mentioned I hated the ancient world?

"I rely on you to not tarnish the Glacies name in front of the prince or do something to insult the prince" Ariana told me again for the 7th time on this carriage ride.

I sneered at her and rolled my eyes at her ignoring her words the 7th time.

She observed me from top to bottom. Ariana was in dismay. "You aren't the Diana I know." Her words made me freeze, they were bound to figure Diana's unusual behaviour some day or another.

I looked sideways towards her direction, my chin still resting upon my palm. She narrowed her eyes at me. "It's like you're a whole different person. You talked back to father and his royal highness which you were never bold enough to do yet you did."

I waited for her to finish her sentence as I was prepared with the answer, I have been thinking for the past few days to answer it.

"Diana, you were rather persistent to agree with the annulment of your engagement with the prince even if you spent your life waiting to marry him like you told me weeks ago. You even didn't want to meet the prince like you always wanted to. What caused you to change so quickly? Or who are you really?" her intense stare locked with mines searching for the imposter inhabiting her half sister's body.

A long sigh escaped my mouth. "Ariana, people are bound to change, no one stays the same forever. They learn to grow up and accept that the world isn't all fairy tales or happily ever after's".

I didn't look her way as I spoke, my attention was on the trees, remembering how I was fool in my past life. I too lived in my fairy tale that didn't end with a happily ever after.

"The night of Prince Damon's birthday, I arrived late. I wanted to make a grand entrance to awe the crowds with my beauty and I had thought that this night I would finally catch the prince's eye but when I peeked my head through the entrance, I saw something that shattered everything I hoped for." My heart suddenly started ache for Diana who witnessed this event in the book. How she stood there frozen in shock, her heart in pieces trying to hold back her tears.

"I stood there, watching you two waltzes gracefully across the ballroom. At that moment I realised that my fairy tale was just my fantasy not reality." I smiled to her, she looked surprised, but her face softened, feeling a little guilty for what she did to Diana. I looked back out the window with a calm expression "The truth won't change but it can definitely change the person."

"So that's it. You accepted that Prince Damon doesn't like you but me" she said.

I nodded knowingly that it was all a lie. I'm just a lost soul that craves to return home inhabiting a body that craved to be free.

Ariana zipped her mouth and didn't utter another word after that.

The faint sounds of crowds of peoples' chattering was getting louder as we got closer.

I froze in my seat, cold sweat run down my neck giving me goosebumps. My hands went cold, my breathing became rapid, and I was unable to breath properly.

I was suddenly trembling in fear as the loud crowds were getting louder and louder. I slowly lifted my trembling hands and clutched my ears blocking the sounds from entering.

"Diana" I heard the faded voice of Ariana, yet I ignored her.

'Mama where are you?' voices echoed in my head making me shake in terror.

'Mama why did you leave me?' please make it go away.

'Mama. MAMA' I don't want to hear any of it.

"Diana!"

I felt soft and warm hands on the back of my hands. I was shut out from my inner fear. I lifted my head to see Ariana confused green eyes staring into my scared icy blue eyes. I was embarrassed letting Ariana see this weakness of mine.

"Why are you suddenly acting like this?" she said.

I opened my mouth to say something but nothing, but a dry croak slipped out. My mouth was dry to utter even a word.

"What are you scared of?" she asked mockingly with a little smirk on her face. I gritted my teeth and swatted her hands away making her squeal a little. I rose up and shut the curtains with a woosh covering the people that were walking from stall to stall as they brought there things for the day before slamming my butt back on the seat. The carriage went dark with only a few dims of light shining through the gaps between the curtains and windows.

That should at least keep the sounds out.

Ariana sat there in a daze not saying a word, her face was a little pale as she absorbed the new information of Diana she just learnt.

I calmed down a little, but my chest was still in pain and my hands run cold as goosebumps was seen. I hated having this fear. This fear of being surrounded by people.

I hate it.

I hate it.

I hate it.

I just want Daisuke to comfort me like he always did. Assuring me it was ok. Why can't I be in his arms right now.

I felt tears prickle in the corners of my eyes, I wanted to cry right there in now. If only I had seen what was coming maybe I wouldn't be in this awful book in the first place. If only I had dodged the incoming blow.

If only I hadn't met Itami maybe things would have been different.

I sat there waiting patiently for the carriage to go through the town that was built in front of the palace while I but my nail for comfort.

I felt like hours when crowds chattering quite down little by little.

Slowly I moved the edge of the curtain to get a little peek. I sighed in relief when I saw that we weren't in the town anymore but in a garden, a beautiful in one fact.

I slowly opened the curtains letting the light shine back in the carriage.

The sight of the garden was breathtaking. Beautiful statues stood tall in the rows of different coloured and types of flowers. Water fountains made from marbles in the middle of the whole garden. Golden bricks for trails and white shiny stones covering the ground hiding away any sign of dirt.

This was one heck of a garden.