Poetically Driven

Empty

I rot from the inside out,

I keep watching as lives pass me by,

I keep watching and fake smiling,

When on the inside I wanna die,

It's too dark,

Too dark and not bright,

I wish it was pure again,

I wish my soul could be white,

It's tainted,

It's gray,

My anger and pain forced it's way back,

Stay away,

Marcy died,

Ruby left,

We broke up,

All I want is Zhav's death,

Is this the life I asked for,

Or spoke about?

I used to be so positive,

Now I just wanna shout,

I wanna shout,

"Why God Why?",

I wanna curse his name,

Just for letting her die,

I wanna shout,

"Why God Why?",

I wanna slap him silly,

For letting that poor Indian girl lie,

I wanna shout,

"Why God Why?",

I wanna kick him in the fucking balls,

For making me wanna tell him my last goodbye,

But mostly I wanna shout,

"Why the fuck am I alive?",

I'm drowning in my own world,

I went for a swim but the world took me for a dive,

I repeated to myself last night,

"I just wanna die",

Over and over I screamed it to God,

But all I did was cry,

Everyone's so blind to see,

They keep asking me if I'm okay,

But okay is what I'll never be,

Not tomorrow or today,

I wanna fade into the darkness,

I want everyone to forget me,

Let me be a lost soul,

Let me be empty,

Let me rot,

Let me decay,

Let me be that monster once again,

Let me fade away,

I wanna be in the back of someone's mind,

I don't wanna be the hot topic,

"OMG ROBIN DAVIS THAT GIRL WHO DIED",

Nigga just stop it,

Leave me alone,

I just wanna be free,

From this curse I'm doomed with,

But I'M FUCKING EMPTY,

Although I used to feel,

I felt the pain,

Although I used to feel,

Feeling drove me insane,

With a click of that button,

I turned it all off,

Never again,

I guess I was just too soft,

But feeling isn't too nice,

I played with fate,

Rolled a stupid fucking dice,

And my sentence was delivered on a silver plate,

It still continues,

We go on and on,

An endless circle,

We don't know right from wrong,

And together the darkness and I,

We watch as life passes by,

And as the darkness consumes me,

I wish I could die,

But that's not an option,

It never was,

My life could stop in the middle of a sentence,

Because,

I feel nothing,

You don't get me?

I'll make it so much clearer,

I Am Empty.

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"Je suis juste un monstre sans âme chérie , je suis vide .." ~K.D.

(Say Kevin Durant one more fucking time. -.-)

~R