Poetically Driven

Hit Me

I almost walked into the street,

I felt the tingle in my legs,

I felt every fiber in my soulless body calling for a car,

Just to hit me,

Hit me,

Hit me,

"Walk" is what she whispered in my head,

"Walk" is what I wanted to do,

I walked until I hit the water of the driveway,

I watched as the cars passed by alone,

I almost did it,

I almost ran into the cars,

I almost killed myself,

Because I can't take it anymore,

I can't deal with my insanity any longer,

I can't deal with the pain,

I can no longer hide this monster,

No one's there for me anymore,

She's gone,

He's gone,

They're all gone,

And I wanna die.

That's it. I really wanna die. I really wanna kill myself. And I literally almost did. Just now.

But then my phone turned green,

It was silent but I felt it buzz,

The buzz was off but I could almost feel it vibrate against me,

I could almost tell that he listened to my prayers for once,

He sent an angel my way and she saved my life,

She told me,

"I need this hoe I can talk about bullshit with,

I need this hoe who I can talk about shit and poop with,

I need this hoe who I can talk about all the fucked up 'crackers' with,

I need this hoe who I can call a 'hoe' and she will call me a 'bitch',

I need this hoe who I can talk to and be myself and not give a fuck,

Cause if I don't have this hoe then I can't be myself,

I can't be who I am today,

You made a huge ass impact on a lot of motherfuckers lives and you don't even know it",

She's right,

I don't know it,

Even if I wanted leave as bad as I did,

There are others who would need me more than I needed death,

So what I'd say to them is,

Hit me,

Hit me with your kind words,

And let me save someone elses' life instead of take my own. 

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Thank you. 

~K. R. D. 

Song: The Fray - You Found Me