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chapter 58

Tw ed talk of sh

A week or so passed the team had an off day.

I woke up and immediately got in the shower. I stepped on the scale. Another 5kg down.
I finnaly started noticing fysicaly changes. But that means em could aswell. I've barely eaten the past 2 weeks. Only ever infront of em so she wouldn't be suspicious. She things I'm doing better again. I might be doing better on the sh part but my brain still feels the same.

I got dressed in some lose clothes.
And made breakfast for em.
She walked out her bedroom ( we were in her apartment).
"Goodmorning beautiful " I say to her.
"How come you already did your makeup and everything? Were meeting the team In 5 hours" it was 10 in the morning.
"I'm going to Spencers apartment first. Then move down to mine to change in some better clothes and then...ill meet you guy at the bar. I'm so excited to see Derek again"

I slide down a plate.
"Are you not eating?" She asked.
"I'm getting coffee at mine and Spencers favourite shop and I'll buy us both some breakfast to eat at his place" I say with I smile. I will buy food for Spencer but not for me.
Em returns rhe smile and eats her breakfast.
"Yk I'm really proud of you" she said as I grab my keys and bag.
"For what?"
"You used the code word once or twice and your just overcoming your darkness. Fighting it is exhausting but I'm glad you choose to fight" I walk over and kiss her forehead.
I'm not over coming the darkness. I get out of bed yes. But that's all I'm doing.

I say goodbye to Sergio.
"Yk we should buy him some stuff for in my apartment aswell. So you don't have to leave him behind, you can just bring him with when your staying over" I say before walking out.

I get in my cat and get some coffee and buy Spencer a chocolate donut with sprinkles.

I walk I'm his apartment.
"Delivery!" He got up from the couch.
"Coffeee!!! Giveeee " he makes grabby hands.
I laugh and hand it over ask I jump over the couch
"Got you your fav" I aslo hand him the Donut.
A smile grew on his face.
"Okay what's the plan? Bing watching a show? Jusy talking? Or you teaching me cool new stuff so I look like I know something when we are working a case?" I grab a pillow and make myself comfortable.
"All of it?" Spencer asked.

And so we did. When it was lunch I couldn't deny food so I had to eat.
It felt weird having a full stomach. I didn't like it. It was almost time to meet the team.
"I have to change into different clothes at my apartment. Do you want to come with and them drive together or do I just meet you at the bar?"
Spencer told me he would meet me there.

I drove home and changed in a bit better looking clothes. A black jeans jumpsuit with a brown short sleeved shirt and a moonbelt I added another flannel over it and wore brown convers.
I put on some eyes shadows to going a more 'going out' look.

I texted In a group chat with Derek in. (Also will. Just like everyone but off the job)

Y/n: im on my way. Can't wait to see @ derek 🤗

Derek: I can't want to see you guys to and just be with adults not a crying baby who is now rolling over.

Will: not sure if we are complete kid free. Y/n and Spencer are coming👶
Spencer🧠: Hey!! I'm a doctor and y/n is the youngest.

Y/n: I may be young but i am wise beyond my years
Babe 💘: now you sound like a grandpa. And I'm guessing your dressed like one too.

Y/n: I am not!

Will: see 👶
Jj: you are as much a child as y/n sometimes.

Y/n: why do I feel Dubble about that comment? Like are you defending me...or calling me a kid....?
Papa rossi: ans you just said you were wise.

Y/n: okay ill execpt I'm a kid. But in that case. @ sis 😻 they are bullying me 😭

Sis😻: do not bully my kid sister. Apologies now or the friendshipfairy will haunt your dreams.

I laughed at the texts and got in the car. I put on the radio to get in the mood.

I got this feeling on a summer day when you were gone!

I crashed my car intoa bridge, I watched, I let it burn!

I threw your shit into a bag and pushed it down the stairs

I crashed my car into a bridge!

I don't care, I love it!

I arrived at the bar and waited outside and texted to group. I scroll through the texts the sketch just went on.

Y/n: im here!!!
Tara: im 1 second away!

Babe💘: o shit I still have to get dressed.
Spencer 🧠: y/n look to your right.

I saw Spencer so I closed off my phone.

"I do not look like a grandpa right?" I ask when Spencer walks over.
"No you look great" he laughed.

The rest of the team arrived uncluding will and luke.
When Derek arrived he hugged everyone.
"DEREKKK" I scream at him and basically jump on him
"Hahah i missed you too kid"

"Soo we can call you kid but not little garcia?" Luke asked
"Exactly " I let go of Derek and he introduced himself to luke.

We move in the bar.
"Okay I'm getting drinks what does everyone want?" They all give their order and luke comes to help.

Emily's pov:

Y/n moved away to get drinks.
"Is she eating enough?" Derek asked.
"Damn that's a heavy question. This is the first time you seen her in 3 months or so " jj said.

He sighed.
"I didn't mean to sound that way. But when I hugged her and she jumped on me....she was so light and she lost alot of weight since i last saw her"
Derek went on.
I didn't notice it but she does look skinnier.
"Ow don't worry she just lost the Weight she gained from her antidepressants when she changed brands" Penelope said.

"You made a face " Tara said to me.
"I did not!" I respond.
"What's going on?" Spencer asked.
I looked down.
"She hasn't taken her antidepressants since she left the hospital....but! But! Her therapist knows and she's doing fine "  I tried to convince myself she's fine.
"Are you sure. I mean I don't see y/n so often but that's a bit weight drop" will said.
"She eats normally so I don't know why she would lose weight "
Luke and y/n were walking back so we stopped talking about it.

Y/n does eat infront of me so how does she keeping Losing weight?

"Okay so..." y/n and luke gave us our drinks.
"How's little 2 month old hank?" I asked.
"Aww he's the cutetest. And i believe giving him Spencer as second name might have made him a genuis"
Derek showed a video of little hank smiling while kicking around.

We had fun at the bar and then went to eat dinner together.

Y/n's pov:

I just eat normally infront of everyone. I felt bad about it but I had to.  I felt everyone looking at me.
Eventually everyone went home.