Last Year's Flowers

Every Day

There's not one day
That passes by where I try not to push you out of my mind.

Waking up with the cracks in my heart,
Eyes opened too early, it's still too dark.

I remember you and smile no more
And I think to myself, "what could I do to go back to before?"

I can recall the early days
When you walked in and my heart changed.

I sit down at the table with my daily glass of tears
Thinking about if loving you was a waste of my years.

I wind down at night wondering if we're a day closer
Or another day further apart...

I go to bed and repeat the same prayer ever night,
“God, only You can make this right.”

I say amen
And then pretend

I'll sleep peacefully tonight
To wake up on another morning knowing you might never be back in my life.