Ghost x reader: New Recruit

36. Base

We flew in silence.

Jay sat next to Soap.

I sat next to Ghost.

I gulped.

Am I gonna get in trouble?

I killed someone.

I actually killed someone.

A lot of someones.

I never wanted to kill someone.

Don't panic.

Please don't panic.

No I'm front of your commanding officers.

I'm gonna be sick.

I'm gonna throw up.

"It's normal to feel a type of way when you first take a life."

I looked at Ghost confused.

"It was your first time. You'll get use to it. You have to if you want to stay here."

"Yes sir."

I'm still gonna throw up.

But I can't.

I shouldn't.

I took many lives.

I can't believe I actually did that.

We landed and had a meeting to go over everything.

My stomach was churning the whole time.

The moment I was allowed to leave, I left to throw up for a few minutes in the bathroom.

I threw up till I was coughing out stomach acid.

"Fuck..."

I cleaned myself up and brushed my teeth before exiting the bathroom.

I looked sideways and jumped when I saw Ghost sitting on my bed, playing with his switchblade.

Crap, I'm not in the mood to be chided.

"Good job today. Not bad for your first time."

I was a bit surprised by his words.

"Thank you sir"

He pat the spot next to him and I slowly sat, looking around for Jay.

"She's off with Soap."

"Oh."

"You can't freeze up like that ever again."

"I know sir, I'm sorry."

"Don't be sorry, be better."

Easy for you to say...

"Yes sir."

He leaned in and his masked lips were on mine.

I was shocked and just sat there.

Why is he kissing me? I should probably do it back now.

I kissed him and put my hand on his cheek.

I tried to lift his mask but he shoved me away.

Ow.

"Don't EVER touch my mask."

"Sorry sir. It's just a bit odd kissing fabric..."

"Doesn't matter. Don't ever lift my mask."

I nodded.

Then we started to make out and got freaky with our hands till we were to tired to do anything but lay on top of each other, bare skin to skin.

We were breathing heavily.

I looked at the clock and gasped.

"I have training in five minutes!"

I jumped off Ghost and got dressed, redid my hair, and sprinted out the door.

I cracked into Jay who was sprinting out of Soap's room.

She looked how I felt.

We ran together and got into formation.

Ghost and Soap walked over and so began the training.

I was exhausted.

I hadn't slept in god knows how long.

I looked at my watch.

I have time for a nap.

But what if I don't wake up on time?

Jay was dead to the world, already fast asleep.

I walked into Ghost's office where he was doing paperwork.

"Wake me in 15 minutes." I said and went to sleep on a chair before he could answer.