I'm scared
I don't know if I should stay
Or if I should pick up everything I can save
And run as far as I can
I'm trying to hide just how much I care
I'm actually trying not to care
And trying not to show how much it affects me when you're with another girl
I'm trying to dampen the frustration I get
When I think of the people who get to see you everyday
I'm trying to ignore the thrill I get when I'm with you
And the chills I get when I'm alone
And I can't put out my thoughts of you
I'm excited of the new things I feel
But I can't help but be wary of it
After everything I've been through cause of love
I have the right to be
How long do I have to hide it?
Till it fades in the shadow without ever seeing the light
Or maybe till you get tired of waiting and leave me hanging?
But either way I don't think I'll ever get the courage to tell you how I feel
Cause as long as I can't read your mind
And as long as there are 'what ifs' in my mind
I won't be able to put my doubts in a bind
So, for now I'll keep your eyes and heart blind
To the facade I play, to make sure peace is in my mind
But I'll slowly show you
Cause I won't really be able to drag it out for too long
So, please tell me if I got anything to fear
Cause for the life of me I can't read between the lines
And I really need to see the cards on the field
Before I completely lose it
And break through the cracks
And just tell you how much I care for you
Cause I... love you...
one of my first poems... please excuse the 'beginner's touch' on this one... still for him... :'(
hugs and kisses.. xOxOx...
always s^.^ile... even with tears streaming down your face... :')
xMsRoPaVax
