I have someone to fight for
But I might not be worth fighting for
I'm missing someone
And he may be missing another one
I want to show how much I care
But he may not really care
I'm falling for this guy
But it might just end in a sad goodbye
I want to lie about my true feelings
But when I lie to myself, I start slipping
I want to hide how I feel
But this feeling is surreal
I want to trust him
But I might slip off the rim
I don't want to let him go
But what if he really wanna go?
I want to give him my all
But what if he suddenly crawls?
Away from me... and us
I don't know if I'll survive another broken trust
I wanna let go of all my 'what ifs'
But what will I do if all he wanted was a lift?
I'm not sure if there's a place for another scar and hurt
Here, inside my already broken and bent heart
I really want to be with him
But I can't help but be wary of him
I want to text and talk with him all the time
But what if I tell too much about me and my crime?
And it feels like I'm at a cliff
Where I can fall like a lifeless leaf
I'm at the edge of death
And it can be my saving grace or my last breath
I'm not really ready for another blow
Cause I might just break off my flow
And this time I might just really fall
With no one to turn to and call
I don't really wanna let go of everything
But I'm not really hanging unto anything
With a single gust I can die
But with a single smile I can fly
I'm torn between my fears and my love
Should I lose my pride and hold unto my love?
Or should I walk away and lose?
I don't know what to choose
Can you tell me if he'll be worth the pain?
Cause I don't really care about a little rain
As long as he don't let go of me
I'll hold on with everything in me
I'm afraid to get hurt
But in living there will always be hurt
But I'll discard my fears
As long as he promise to catch my tears
I won't care if he hurt me
As long as he don't stop holding me
And I won't care about anything
As long as he's with me through everything
I'll discard my pride and my fears
I won't think of 'what ifs' and my tears
And I'll ignore the impending blow
And I'll be here as long as he doesn't let go
another one for him... a poem I wrote after I admitted to myself that I do love him... I wanna tell him that I'm sorry for the way I let go... I did wish that he won't let me go though... guess I wasn't as important to him as he made me believe... :(
hugs and kisses... xOxOx...
always s^.^ile... :')
xMsRoPaVax
