confessions on the wall - lashton

26

February 25, 2018

Ashton: 3:19AM
how you finna leave my
house without telling me?

Luke: 3:19AM
Uh, well, just the way I
did it...? Sorry, I didn't
wanna wake you.

Ashton: 3:31AM
yeah, sorry for
falling asleep on you,
next time you can
literally wake me up.

Luke: 3:32AM
It's completely fine.
You needed to rest, I
get that.

Ashton: 3:33AM
why are you up so
late anyway? are you
okay?

Luke: 3:33AM
Yeah, I am. Just
can't sleep for some
reason.

Ashton: 3:34AM
oh, okay. well, since i
slept so much this
afternoon, i'm pretty
awake now too.

Luke: 3:34AM
Congrats, you done
played yoself.

Ashton: 3:34AM
thank you 🤗 whatcha
doing??

Luke: 3:35AM
Honestly? Just laying here
and thinking. Listening
to music. Talking to you
because you're the only
person crazy enough to be
up this late.

Ashton: 3:36AM
hmm... doesn't that make
you crazy then too? what
are you listening to?

Luke: 3:37AM
Just a playlist I made of
softer, slower songs to
help me relax or calm
down so I can sleep.
Currently it's "Somebody
Else" by the 1975. And, hey,
I never said I wasn't crazy.

Ashton: 3:38AM
oh shit, getting all up
in your feels, hmm?

Luke: 3:38AM
Lmao yeah. Listening
to sad songs while I'm
sad to make myself
even sadder 🤷😂

Ashton: 3:39AM
awh, whatcha sad
about?

Luke: 3:39AM
That's a very good
question. I have no
fucking idea what
caused it, honestly.
Just kinda in a
mood I guess.

Ashton: 3:39AM
thanks, depression.

Ashton: 3:40AM
no, but really, if you
wanna talk about it,
i'm here. besides,
wasn't that our deal?
i make you understand
happiness?

Luke: 3:41AM
True. But like I said, I
don't know what
triggered (I really hate
that word now, but idk
what to replace it with) it.

Ashton: 3:41AM
even so, you should know
what you're sad about right
now, shouldn't you? lay it
on me, fam.

Luke: 3:42AM
I can't... I don't want it
to sound like I'm pitying
myself... Even though
I am.

Ashton: 3:43AM
c'mon, let me join your pity
party. i'm here at the door,
just let me in.

Luke: 3:43AM
Fineeee. Okay, well, this
makes me sound like a
shit person because you've
lost so much including your
friends and your family
but... I'm honestly just so
jealous about the fact that
your father cares for you.
Like, truly cares, no faking
at all. I  could tell.

Luke: 3:44AM
I'm sorry. Fuck that's so
insensitive. I'm so sorry. Why
the fuck am I wallowing in my
own self pity when you have so
many obstacles to face daily.
I'm so sorry.

Ashton: 3:45AM
i don't really know how to
respond to this. thank you for
starters, literally no one's ever
been jealous of me before. 'cuz
y'know, cancer and ugliness and
annoyingness and all. so thanks
for that breif moment of making
me feel good. as for the feeling
bad about my dad thing, i get
what you mean. i feel that way
whenever i see a loving mother
with her child, or when my sister
used to message me and talk about
how wonderful my own mother
was... just not to me. but, hey, as
you said to me before: you've got
me.

Luke: 3:46AM
thank you... that, like,
really made me feel so
much better thank you.

Ashton: 3:36AM
anytime. look, i know i slept all
day, but i'm actually kinda tired
now that the medicine is kicking
in. are you going to be alright?

Luke: 3:37AM
I'm good now. Get some
sleep. Goodnight, Ash xx

Ashton: 3:37AM
oh, i get a nickname
and kisses.😉

Luke: 3:37AM
Shit, sorry. Didn't even
think about it...

Ashton: 3:38AM
no, i like it... goodnight,
hemmo xx