Bullies|| Noah schnapp x reader

Part 13

Noahs pov

I saw y/n walking closer to us, but she was walking in a slow pace looking at the ground and glancing up at us every few seconds

I glanced over at her arm which had a big scar and other ones Around it I felt my heart drop to my stomach. I can't believe I was so mean to her just because I wanted to please millie, what the hell is wrong with me?

Sadie greeted her and after a bit of us talking I hugged her

I started crying, I know 'men don't cry' or whatever bullshit people say, which can I just say men do cry just as much as anyone else does just because we're guys doesn't mean we can't show emotion (not a guy myself but I find it annoying when people say this like dude they're human let them cry oml)

Anyways when I went up to hug her she hugged back, The hug felt so right yet so heartbreaking

After a while I pulled away and we brought y/n back into her room where we cleaned it up

"Are you sure you want to be alone in here?" Gaten asked y/n just looked at him her eyes fearful but then she quickly changed the expression

"Hmm? Oh yeah yeah totally I could- yeah, it's fine" she seemed nervous well I don't blame her we bloody bullied her, literally

Y/n was sitting on the edge of her b d and I was just standing at the side of them all not even saying anything as they all tried to talk to her

I turned around to Caleb and whispered him something

"Hey.. I know this might sound weird but can you please take the rest of them somewhere else? I want to speak to y/n for a second or a minute"

Caleb just gave me a look but he nodded "don't you dare hurt her again" he says and turns around to everyone else

"Guys can you come with me, except y/n and Noah" he said and they all agreed and left

"Um.." y/n said I looked over at her and she was shaking

"Hey what's wrong?" I ask stepping closer to her I put my hand out to try to touch her to check her temperature but she flinched and moved away

"Nothing It's nothing just my anxiety I guess, it'll most likely be over in a couple minutes" she said shaking her legs and fidgeting around with her fingers, I could tell it wasn't gonna be over in a couple of minutes

I walked closer to her and sat next to her, y/n tried to avoid looking at me because she looked around the room

I hesitated a little bit but I decided to put my arm around her, to try to comfort her she flinched again but I pulled her closer to me

"Hey, it's gonna be okay" I said trying to calm her down she was still shaking but not as bad as she was before

"I'm sorry" she said after a while of me holding her "I guess my anxiety just worsened over this past month" she said that with such hate in her voice it hurt me

"Listen I'm truly TRULY sorry for what I did to you" I practically begged, y/n got out of my arms and looked at me

"Then why'd you do it?" She asked her voice was shaking, I stared at her for a couple seconds and didn't say anything, the reason was simple I just wanted to seem "cool" because I wanted to keep millie happy which was stupid of me but... sometimes I don't use my head (who gets that reference?)

I didn't want to tell her this for two reasons, she'd hate me more than she does already and I didn't want her to hate millie which I'm sure she already does but you know

After a while of no sound I heard y/n chuckle a sad chuckle

"Okay then, Noah please get out of my room" she said in yet another harsh tone I got up and looked at her

"No wait y/n-" but she cut me off

"Noah please get out, I don't want to see any of you today tomorrow and ne- just leave" y/n was at the verge of tears so I didn't argue I walked to the door and turned back around to see her looking down with her fingers in her hair

"I'm sorry" was the last thing I said and walked out of the room

Oof why do I actually hate millie in this book? Lmao well here's a late upload

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