Bullies|| Noah schnapp x reader

Part 30

Your pov*

I woke up on my bed, I looked around and saw Sadie sitting there

I felt nothing for a moment, it was all okay until the moments of last night hit me. I looked down at my arm and mentally kicked and slapped myself

"Are- y/n I'm sorry, I should've told you" Sadie said her eyes were full of pain

"It's okay, I could understand where you were coming from. But I'm still kinda mad" I said giving her a small smile

"Why'd you try it again?" She said after a moment of silence, I look at her not understanding what she meant until I finally realize

I just shrugged, feeling no emotion.

"Y/n that doesn't help" Sadie says, when she says that I remember what Noah said last night, the same thing

"I know it doesn't, it's just not my choice this time" I sigh not wanting to talk about this anymore

"Fine, but you always have a choice. Leo's been calling so has ash they're worried" she says handing me her phone

Lately faith hasn't been calling me, she's probably busy back home.

"Did you tell them?" I asked looking down at my arms

"Don't look there" Sadie said trying to make me look at her "and no, they just have been calling.. bad feeling I guess"

"Yeah.." I say drifting off into the abyss of my own mind "can you call them?" I asked after a moment

Sadie sat next to me and called ash after a few rings her answered

"Hey red head!" He greeted "oh hey y/n where have you been? We've been calling" he moved position trying to make himself more comfortable

"It's only been a day" I say, I was too tired to put sarcasm in my voice

"Yeah.. a day too long" he joked, I tried to enjoy my time talking to this goof ball but my mind kept going back to Noah and his stupid stupid face, I felt this pit in my stomach like if I wanted to throw up, I got dizzy and just felt this huge weight on my shoulders

"Hey ash.." I say after a while "I'll talk to you later, I'm not feeling well" my head started hurting and I could barley understand what he was saying

The pain in my head traveled down to my heart, as if they were attached. I hung up not realizing I was starting to see a blur

"Y/n are you okay?" I heard Sadie's voice say, it was like she was a mile away and we were in a cave

I felt my heart beat faster, and I felt as if I were floating around in space. I start to get scared that I might fall down even though I'm laying down on a bed. I feel like I'm on a roller coaster but only the feeling of being on it. Every inch of my body started feeling like something or someone was pressing into it with a knife. Then I blacked out. Hearing Sadie's voice like an echo

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*cringe warning YEET*

I opened my eyes and looked around, I was in a white room. Plain white it felt like the white room was endlessly long

Where am I?

I felt all the pain in the world all over my body not only physically but emotionally. After a while of feeling like this I felt nothing. I felt happiness as if happiness was the only feeling I've ever felt, I felt peaceful, loved, calm. Happy. This feeling was so great I almost cried, no I did start crying, tears of joy.

Was I dead?

No

I heard a soft gentle voice say, but there was no one around

I won't allow myself to show you how I look. If you wanna get back to your physical form

I hear a chuckle, the voice filled me with more peace and positivity, it was almost overwhelming, I just wanna share this feeling with others.

"Where am I?"

I would love to answer that, but you can't know just yet

"Okay.. so why am I here?" I asked gently

Just to give you a glimpse. Why would you do it?

I thought for a moment, knowing what he meant. I knew he knew why I did it he just wanted me to know for sure see the other sides in it

Very wise

Can he read my mind?

Well of course I can

I smiled and tried to think of my reasoning

"Well, because... I guess I was just tired of all the pain. I didn't think anyone loved me. A lot of reasons I can't explain in words"

And what do you feel now?

"Happiness, immense happiness and peace, as if everything I felt was just a bad dream. Love." I smiled feeling my heart being healed

That's the true feeling, what you feel down there is just temporary, it might last a long time but it fleeds and you're left with feeling happiness. It may come back, but At the end of the day happiness will always find you. Well you're gonna have to wake up, I won't see you again after a long long time. Remember be kind to others. And Noah, he.....

But I started hearing the voice more distant, I felt as If I were falling from space down to earth and then I woke up

Wait Noah what?

I woke up for real this time, I looked around and I was in my room. I felt calm, everything I was just feeling I still felt it. A hint of pain, but that was all.

"Y/n you're back! Oh gosh I thought you died" Sadie said and came to hug me

"Yeah and you didn't call the ambulance?" I said and laughed

"Y/n..." I heard a voice say I turned to look at the person and it was Noah

This chapter is so BAD

Also love actually sucks, especially when it's been hidden away for a long time... trust me