Just A Bet

Disappointment & Tears

Disappointment & Tears:

*****Carters pov***** 

I woke up on the floor my head was laying on the  guitar case I sat up my back and neck were in a lot of pain shit I don’t even know what time I fell asleep all I remember was writing the song I looked at the notebook I was pretty proud of myself the song was pretty good I stood up and took a quick shower and changed I finished and I grabbed my guitar and went downstairs I really hope nobody sees me with this guitar I went outside and walked to graces house I knocked on the door she opened it I walked in and closed the door she looked at my guitar and looked at me confused she said carter what are you doing I said I um wrote this for you I bit my lip so hard I could taste blood I took a deep breath and started singing the song  

You walk into the room 
So perfect but unaware 
Making me stop and stare 
Every time I heard he broke your heart 
Can I just fix you girl? 
Show you a different world? 
 
I'll take you anywhere 
I'll put you on a throne 
I'll lay down my heart, I swear 
And I'll make sure that you'll never be alone 
 
Only my shadow knows 
How I feel about you 
Only my shadow goes 
Where I dream of you and me 
Should I go or wait? 
Is it too soon, too late? 
Only my shadow knows 
 
I've been loving you so long 
And now that I got the chance 
I see you need to dance on your own 
So I'll wait another day 
Maybe another year 
I'm gonna be right here, oh 
 
I'll take you anywhere 
I'll put you on a throne 
I'll lay down my heart, I swear 
And I'll make sure that you'll never be alone (alone) 
 
Only my shadow knows 
How I feel about you 
Only my shadow goes 
Where I dream of you and me 
Should I go or wait? 
Is it too soon, too late? 
Cause only my shadow knows 
 
I wish I could say all these words 
All these things that your heart never heard, yeah 
But I saw the pain in your eyes and it sealed my lips 
 
Only my shadow knows 
How I feel about you 
Only my shadow goes 
Where I dream of you and me 
Should I go or wait? 
Is it too soon, too late? 
Only my shadow knows, ey 
Only my shadow knows, oh oh 
 
Only my shadow knows 

I finished the song and she said carter... I..um before she finished her sentence Luke walked behind her and wrapped his arms around her and said hey babe what's carter doing here. I looked at grace but she looked away I said I was just leaving Luke said you should stay me and grace were just on our way to Starbucks to celebrate that we're back together want to come I said no thank you I opened the front door and left I walked to my house and opened the door I slammed the door shut and slammed the guitar to the wall causing it to break I was mad furious I hated her how could she take him back he cheated on her with one of her best friends i hated her I despised her right now I wanted her to feel the pain I was feeling I feel like someone stabbed my heart I just wanted to break something just like she broke me I've never been this furious I went in the living room and picked up a vase that was on the coffee table and slammed it to the wall I went in the kitchen and grabbed all the plates I could find and threw them to the ground causing them to break everything on the kitchen counters I through to the ground the floor was covered with broken glass I opened the refrigerator and took out a 12 pack of beer I went in the living room and drank all of them in less than about 30 minutes but I wanted more I wanted to drink until couldn’t remember grace or how she hurt I went In the kitchen and I opened the cabinet door and took out all the vodka bottles I had in there out it was about 15 bottles I opened one and drank it I opened another one and drank it I drank  three more but I still wanted more I could still remember her and feel pain I got the empty bottles I had and smashed them to the wall I grabbed the rest of the vodka bottles I had and took them up to my room I slammed the door shut and put them on my bed I suddenly felt like throwing up I ran to the bathroom and through up I looked at myself in the mirror I put my hand in a fist and punched the mirror I felt pain in my fist I looked at it and blood was coming out there was broken pieces of glass on it I went back to my room and grabbed a lamp on my nightstand and threw it to the ground causing it to break I grabbed a vodka bottle a began drinking some of It no matter how much more I drank I knew this was going to help end the pain I had already drank like ten bottle of vodka I opened the eleventh one and began drinking it I still felt hurt I grabbed a piece of glass that was on the floor from the lamp and held it to my wrist I haven't done this since the last time a bitch hurt me I pressed the piece of glass on to my wrist and cut it I did it again and again on both wrist I drank some more vodka and continued with my wrist I saw blood coming out but I didn’t care I started to feel dizzy and the room started spinning around I dropped the piece of glass and I could feel my body and then all I could see was black.  

*****graces pov***** 

I got out of Luke's car and said Luke I think we should end this he said what why what did I do it hasn’t even been 24 hours since we got together I said I just don’t feel the same way about you anymore I have feelings for someone else I'm sorry he sighed and said I understand and I'm sorry I'm not good enough for you I said Luke your going to find the perfect girl for you and she's going to love you back I'm just not that girl I'm sorry he gave me a weak smile and said I got to go. I stepped away from the car and he drove off I ran to carters house and knocked on the door but he didn’t open it I had a bad feeling I got the emergency key he had hidden in one of the plants he had in front of his house I unlocked the door and went in everything was a mess there was things thrown everywhere and broken glass on the floor his guitar was broken near the wall I called out his name but there was no reply I ran upstairs and went to his room he was laying on the floor his wrist were all bloody and a lot of blood was on the floor coming from his wrist I quickly kneeled down to him and said carter wake up please wake up carter he was still breathing so that was good I shook him a little while saying his name and he slowly opened his eyes I had tears in my eyes by now I gave him a big hug. 

*****carters pov***** 

I heard someone calling my name I slowly opened my eyes and I saw grace next to me she hugged me and said carter I'm so glad your ok for a second I thought I had lost you she slapped my chest and said don’t you ever scare me like that again carter I cant lose you you’re the last person I have my wrist were in so much pain and my head was killing me I felt horrible I looked at grace and said you lied to me you said you liked me but you don’t you took him back how could you and why would you do that she said I'm so sorry carter I just thought that if I went out with him again my feelings for you would disappear but than you sang me that amazing song and I realized that I only want to be with you nobody else please forgive me she pressed her soft lips onto mine I was still on the floor and so was she. I smiled at her and said I like you to she hugged me tight and said carter why would you hurt yourself like this she took one of my wrist in her hand and said this is all my fault I said no its not I was just so mad and I thought this would make me feel better and at first it did but then it didn’t she helped me stand up and I sat on my bed she walked in the bathroom and brought a first aid kit she sat next to me she cleaned the blood off my wrist and sprayed something on to one of my wrist which really stung I tensed up a little and winced in pain she said sorry she wrapped it up and then did the same to the other wrist she gave me some water and a pain killer and she put the first aid kit away she came back and sat next to me again she put her arm around my waist and said that song was amazing it gave me this feeling inside that no one but you has ever given me I said grace so do you want to be my girlfriend she said no I wouldn’t like to be your girlfriend I frowned she smiled at me and said id love to be your girlfriend she kissed me and I kissed back we both pulled away I took off my shirt and we got under the covers she had her arm around my waist and I had my arms around her I said grace so are we going to tell people she said I don’t know should we I said only if you to she said what if he finds out and tries to separate me from you I said who and she said the guy that shot you I said your right maybe we should just keep this a secret for now she said yea just in between me and you I nodded my head and said just in between me and you princess.