Magnus Academy: The Cursed Blood

Epilogue II

The lightning cracked through the skies, down the ground, the rain dropped like showers from the darkened clouds, and the leaves finally left their branches.

There was no blood, yet half of my hair was down there, it fell faster than anything else. I feel like everything slowed down like I was seeing another version of my self when it did. I was too shocked to move. Then I heard a cracking sound, then another, and finally the last one...the broken shards of the ring left my finger.

Bigla na lamang akong napaluhod sa lupa, both my weapons disappearing and then reappearing countless times, the barrier...I could feel it growing and growing. The magic circles above are widening, they are growing in numbers. Napahawak ako sa ulo ko, ang sakit nito. What is this pain? Is it mine? Energy. I feel different kinds of energy.

My heart was racing so fast as if it was exploding, my body feels heavy and painful, na para bang hinahati akong buhay. My head feels like breaking down into pieces, memories, energies, and emotions...I see all of them...I feel all of them.

Joy; cheerfulness, then there was amusement, ecstasy, gaiety, euphoria, bliss, elation, delight, happiness, jubilation. Zest; enthusiasm, excitement, exhilaration, thrill, surprise, astonishment, amazement.

Love; affection, longing, trust, fondness, attraction, adoration, sentimentality, caring, lust, arousal, desire, passion, infatuation, obsession.

Sadnes; suffering, agony, sorrow, hurt, anguish, disappointment, shame, guilt, remorse, regret, insecurity, alienation, homesickness, embarrassment, humilation.

Anger; fury, rage, wrath, bitterness, loathing, resentment, hate, frustration, exasperation, annoyance, irritation, agitation, aggravation, grouchiness, disgust, revulsion, contempt, jealousy, torment.

Ah all these emotions, one by one entering my body...hindi ko kaya. Hindi ko alam ang mararamdaman ko. What are my emotions? Is this my confusion? Is this my own pain? Or are these just one of these flowing emotions na hindi nanggaling sa akin? Wala na akong maintindihan.

Muli akong napasigaw nang muli ko na namang maramdaman ang ilan pang milyong emosyon. I closed my eyes, open them, close them...I'm crying, I'm smiling, I'm laughing, I'm screaming in pain, and I'm suffering, lahat lahat ng ito ay ang kung ano ang meron ko ngayon.

If I had let her dagger stab me instead, would I have not felt this tormenting emotions? I'd rather feel pain alone than having this billions of mixed emotions in my body. Nadudurog ang puso ko, hindi na makapag-isip ang utak ko dahil sa bawat emosyon na ito ay may halong mga memorya galing sa kung sino man sila nanggaling.

I probably looked crazy right now. But I'm begging anything there is...I wish for this to stop. Can the world just stop for once? Can people make their emotions disappear for once? Hindi ko kaya. Hindi ko kaya. Ang sakit. Ang gulo gulo ng isipan ko. Kay sino ito? Akin? O sa kanila?

My veins, my organs, everything inside me is screaming! And who's fault is this? Kay sinong kasalanan na naghihirap ako ngayon? Is it mine because I tried avoiding her quick attack which resumted to my hair being cut off instead? Looking beside me where my hair lies, a long black silky hair, just a moment ago it was still connected, I could still feel it. Pero ngayon...nasa lupa na ito at hindi na muling babalik pa.

It's Andrea's fault, right? Siya ang may kasalanan kung bakit ako naghihirap ngayon. I'm so angry that I pity her, I'm so sad that I want her dead, I'm so happy that I get to fight her. Yet after all those emotions, I feel completely everything mized together. Did Andrea do this on purpose? Kailangan niya ba talaga akong pahirapan ng ganito dahil gusto niya lang ng totoong laban?