The Smirking Jerk (Blake's POV)

Chapter 54

Chapter 54

I went to school thinking about what Doctor Boseman had told me. I wondered about the way I perceived Lexi, and if what I felt for her was more obsession than love.

I didn't particularly like to think about that.

I was standing by my locker when I saw Lexi walked up to me, with a determined expression. For half a second, I imagined that she'd push me against the lockers and kiss me.

But she actually just punched me hard on the shoulder.

Wait. Had I really sent my love confession last night? I was sure I hadn't.

"Hey! What the hell was that for?" I asked her, a little clueless, grabbing her hand so she couldn't hit me again.

She looked like she was ready to do it too.

"You're a liar," Lexi snapped at me.

"What?" I asked.

What was going on here? What had I missed? Was she really mad? She looked mad.

Oh shit. What had she figured out?

"I read the freaking play last night. A nice ending? You call Hernani and Dona Sol dying, a nice ending?" Lexi said, angry, and punched me with her free hand. I should have seen it coming.

Oooooh. Relief washed over my body.

This had nothing to do with me, not really. This was fine. This was safe. "Depends on what you consider a nice ending," I answered, teasingly.

I didn't really get why she was surprised though. It was a story by Victor Hugo. Of course it was going to be dramatic at the end.

"That wasn't a nice ending. That was a freaking sad ending, alright?" Lexi snapped at me.

I ignored her little outburst and asked with a smirk, "Did you cry?"

Did she like the play enough to cry? I wondered if books could affect her this much. I'd seen her engrossed while reading in the middle of a class many times, but I'd never seen her cry over it.

I wondered if she cried over books. 

I'd never get tired of knowing this girl better.

"You asshole, don't you dare smirking. You said that was a nice ending. How is them dying a nice ending?" Lexi asked, not answering my question.

She probably cried. She probably didn't want to admit it though. She felt things deeply, it made sense for her to cry.

But yeah... that ending. It could have ended better if Hernani had no honor and didn't keep his word.

But he did, so they died. Unfortunately, talking about this, and also the fact that I'd been dealing with a lot of head problems lately made me think about my own death.

Josh had been joking about being happy to die in my arms.

I used to think things would be better if I died. I used to be more accepting of my own death.

I almost forced it.

Things were different now though.

I still felt bad about a lot of things... but I wasn't ready to die now.

I was scared of it actually.

But if I had to chose. Well...

"They died together. Together. He was in her arms. Not everyone has that luck. To die in the arms of the one they love. I think it's a fairly good ending considering everything," I told Lexi, looking in her eyes.