Dreamers

BIRTHDAY 🎂

After all that stress last night with my mom I tried not to think about it too much, frankly I was fed up with having to put up with all my mom's homophobic lines, I found myself thinking about the following question why she was so hard on me whenever she came the subject of my sexuality came up, I was gay and that was so wrong, I almost thought several times if I really had a problem, my head was a bundle of nerves, I no longer knew what was right or wrong, I stopped for a while to analyze and maybe the problem wasn't really me, but why was it still so difficult for my mother to accept me the way I am, could it be that there was something she didn't tell me, I had so many questions in mind, sometimes I felt like I was crazy,amidst all that internal emotional conflict my only intention was to talk to someone, I just didn't know who, I usually always talk to Amber and Rachel or Jay about it, but I couldn't be occupying them every time I was feeling too bad to talk about my problems, but if not them with whom else then, that's when by some twist of fate i had received a video call from jay, i told him about what had happened, until he told me to look through the window, I saw him outside and told him to come in before my mom saw him downstairsbut if not them with who else then, it was when by some irony of fate i had received a video call from jay, i told him about what had happened, until he told me to look out the window, i saw him on the side of outside and told him to come in before my mom saw him downstairsbut if not them with who else then, it was when by some irony of fate i had received a video call from jay, i told him about what had happened, until he told me to look out the window, i saw him on the side of outside and told him to come in before my mom saw him downstairs
- Hi, are you ok? –
– Not really much, but it always gets better when you're here –
- What happened? – Me and my mother, we had a bad argument yesterday –
"But I don't want to worry you about that."
– Are you sure because I have time, today is Saturday remember? –
- Jay I can't always talk to you or Amber and Rachel about my problems -
– But that's what friends and... lovers are for –
- You never said we were dating? –
- No? Well I didn't think I needed –
"So you're telling me we're dating?" –
– All I know is that when I look at you, I... I feel like I'm someone else, you know? – – And I feel a strange sensation that I have never felt before –
"Wow, this is how it is when we... Oh forget it."
– When are we in love? Is that what you were going to say? –
– Nevermind – So you don't love me Jay? –
- You know Nate, when you're a guy like me, love just seems to invite more pain -
- It's not as bad as never being loved by anyone -
- I don't know what love is Jay, I've never been in love with anyone like you before - "So you're in love with me-"
– I would say yes, but like you said, love just seems to invite more pain –
– Even more so when you hardly know what is right –
- It's okay, I'll teach you - he said after kissing me deeply, soon after I hear my mother coming up the stairs, Jay had hidden in my closet, and I told my mother that I was changing clothes my mother had coming up to talk to me about what had happened last night and apologized to me even though I said I wanted to talk about it another time and still ended up mentioning the fact that my birthday was in a few weeks I just told her to give me a time and left
"You know you need to stop hiding me in your closet, it's a kinda ironic you know?—" "Besides, why didn't you tell me about your birthday?" –
- Well because apparently we are not dating remember? –
- Doesn't mean I don't care -
"Okay, do you have to go now?" –
"Wait a minute, you didn't even tell me when your birthday is."
- I was thinking of getting you a present -
– If you really want to know it's September 3rd, still two weeks until then, now out
- Okay, but be smart, I'll be back -
– You always come back Jay –
at the end of the day i went to the lake to relax and maybe reflect a little i lay on the grass for hours, just thinking about how great that had been, maybe i should do this more often, but as all good things last a while, that's it time to go back to the real world or in a nutshell to my house, it was already getting dark and it would probably rain then. When I returned home, of course, I couldn't do without my mother's interrogation, even though I arrived long before dark.
– Where have you been all day? –
"Oh... I just went for a walk around town—"
– May I know with whom exactly? –
- With no one but me, me and only me -
- So that means you didn't go see Jay, right? –
"Oh... no, to tell you the truth, I haven't seen Jay all day—"
- You weren't upset by what I told you this morning, were you? –
– What was it again? - Your birthday -
- Ata, about that mom, look, you don't have to worry okay, I'm fine - "Are you sure you're not upset, because it looks like you..."
- Mom, I'm fine, I'm really great -
- In fact, I don't even remember the reason for our argument -
"By the way, I have something for you—"
I had given her a coupon voucher for a day at the spa, maybe I wasn't the only one in need of a break, I had a feeling my mum was a nervous wreck just like I was, although last time we If we hadn't gotten along very well, maybe a day at a relaxing spa would distract her from all the problems she had on her mind, and maybe that way she'd stop bugging me all the time, too.
During that time I saw that Amber and Rachel were acting a little strange, whenever I met them at school they seemed a little too anxious, I could even expect that from Amber as always, but Rachel at all times tried to avoid me in any way. way, I knew they were hiding something from me, and not only them apparently, my mother also acted the same way, that when she didn't always make an excuse to go to work or something, not to mention Jay who hasn't even spoken to me in days.
After two long weeks, it was my birthday, but to me it felt like another day, I couldn't see anything as special as everyone said it was, I just got up and got ready for school, when I went downstairs on the stairs my mother said she was waiting for me with a special breakfast for me, and that it was also okay if I was late for school today, in fact she herself had offered to take me before work, but I refused, which I didn't it helped a lot since she came with that talk that it wasn't a request, so in the end she ended up taking me anyway.
– Thanks for the ride mom –
"Oh wait, I have something for you first—"
- Please don't tell me you made my lunch today too -
– Happy birthday – She had given me a gift in a very big package, but I didn't
have high expectations, after all not everything is what it seems, I was already expecting something very tacky or a tacky outfit, when I opened the box I saw a brand new pair of skates, usually my mother gives me socks for my birthday, but I think this year I could say that she really outdid herself, it was much better than I expected, considering all our history in the last few days, but after my mother's gift no one else could top this good one at least that's what i thought isn't it, anyway i put the skates in my bag and went to class, when i ran into Amber and Rachel at lunchtime they certainly came a lot excited about my birthday "Happy birthday, Nate," they had both said with huge smiles on their faces and an obvious sense of satisfaction, and had even brought me two gifts for a change.
– Here, this is my present, go ahead, open it soon
– Okay – when I opened the present that Amber had given me, I saw that it was a vintage
camera, the kind that the photo comes out ready, I thought it was a bit old-fashioned, but
it still looked like a good gift
- Okay now open mine - When I opened Rachel's present for a moment I
wondered if they had planned that, Rachel had given me a collage album of
photos, it was kind of ironic considering that the two had given me gifts well
related to each other, but apparently that wasn't the only surprise they had for
me, they gave me another special gift in a jewelry box, when I opened it it was
a heart necklace in 3 halves each one written "best friends forever" along with
our initials on the front, and on the back there was even more writing that said:
"side by side or with a distance of a million, we will always be friends with one
heart"
- Thanks guys, they were the best gifts I ever got -
- And since I have a camera, why don't we take a picture, to remember this moment -
– So what do you think of us going somewhere after school, like the cafeteria or the mall, I don't
know – When I invited them, they started making me countless excuses,
but apparently the same as before, nothing could get me out of my head that they might be trying to hide something from me, but I tried to pretend that everything was fine, after class I went to the bus stop, until I bumped into Jay , for someone who seemed to have been missing for weeks he was really excited to see me.
– Time if it isn't you missed call –
"It's good to see you too...shortly."
- Well, you haven't answered or called me for weeks then... -
- Sorry I've been a little busy, but I know today is a special day -
– Well, you could say yes –
– And that's why I have a special surprise prepared for you today –
– I want to take you somewhere, but I need you to stay blindfolded until then –
- You know, you don't need to give me exorbitant gifts, okay -
– I would be happy if you would just take me to Latte Point and buy me a chocolate –
– Oh come on... just give me a chance please, it will be fun I promise –
- Okay... give it to me - He had blindfolded me, and I got on Jay's bike towards a place that I didn't even know where it was, but that's okay, although it didn't seem like it, I thought it was cool that at least one day everyone is cool with me, when I got off the bike and took off the blindfold I was really surprised, Jay had taken me to a skating rink, at the same moment I had remembered the skates that my mother had given me and I tried to fit all the pieces together
- Okay, what's going on -
– First my mother gives her a skate for her birthday –
– Then you bring me to a skating rink –
- I hope you're not thinking this is a coincidence -
"I don't know anything about rollerblading," Jay had told me in a rather sarcastic tone and I had given him a suspicious look.
- Okay, I told your mom to buy the skates -
"But just because I wanted to surprise you—"
- It's lucky for you, my mother knows how to hide it well -
- I'll rent one for myself, put yours on if you want -
I knew they were hiding something, yet I felt that Jay still hadn't told me exactly everything, for me he still had something he was hiding up his sleeves, but I preferred not to think about it too much, and try to enjoy it. a little bit, but I just missed one detail that I hadn't mentioned to Jay
– Jay I... I don't know how to skate –
- It's okay I'll help you, it's not difficult - Jay just held my hand and tried to guide me, although several times I looked like I had two left feet, but I didn't mind that much, it was really nice to spend the whole afternoon with Jay, when I realized it was almost dark, I certainly had to go home he had given me a big box wrapped in yellow wrapping paper with purple stripes, and on the card it just said happy birthday, the box didn't surprise me that much, but i didn't want to open it i told him he could return it since i and he weren't exactly on the best terms possible, even though he kind of wanted to try to have a good relationship with me, he still found it kind of weird having to forcefully interact with him, and even though he said I didn't want to keep the present he still wanted to If I stayed with him, I just tried to ignore him and hang out a bit, at the end of the party when everyone left, my mother still raised serious questions with me about my treating Mark that way. I just but i didn't want to open it up i told him he could give it back since me and him weren't exactly on the best of terms, even though he kind of wanted to try to have a good relationship with me, he still found it kind of weird having to forcefully interact with him , and even though he said that I didn't want to keep the present he still wanted me to have it, I just tried to ignore him and enjoy it a bit, at the end of the party when everyone left, my mother still raised serious questions with me about me treating Mark that way. I just but i didn't want to open it up i told him he could give it back since me and him weren't exactly on the best of terms, even though he kind of wanted to try to have a good relationship with me, he still found it kind of weird having to forcefully interact with him , and even though he said that I didn't want to keep the present he still wanted me to have it, I just tried to ignore him and enjoy it a bit, at the end of the party when everyone left, my mother still raised serious questions with me about me treating Mark that way. I just and even though he said I didn't want to keep the present he still wanted me to have it, I just tried to ignore him and enjoy it a bit, at the end of the party when everyone left, my mom still raised serious questions with me about me treating Mark like that. I just and even though he said I didn't want to keep the present he still wanted me to have it, I just tried to ignore him and enjoy it a bit, at the end of the party when everyone left, my mom still raised serious questions with me about me treating Mark like that. I just I said I didn't want to talk about it, that's when my mom just went upstairs and we just avoided another night of arguing, thankfully because what I least needed, even more so on my birthday, still nothing got me out of my head what it would be that gift he had given me, when I opened it I could not believe what I saw, Mark had presented me with a new video game, as much as it was a really incredible gift, I would never accept it even more for my mother to want bragging or something, even Jay who hadn't given me a present had been less tense than the Mark situation and once again I couldn't escape drama, not even on my birthday as I always ended the day in bed , wondering if the next day could be better than this one.