The sun died when you left the city
I heard it call out your name
The sky screamed and the clouds wept
I soaked in my own shame
The world darkened when you packed your bags
I choked on the blackened sky
Is it better to speak or to sob?
I never got to bid you goodbye
I ran through the streets to find your car
But you were racing away
Like a mad woman, I searched for you
Begging you to stay
You were gone before I could say it
The words you didn't want to hear
I loved you more than anything in the world
And I would for another year
The earth collapsed when you left its walls
Stars shattered as they fell to the ground
All those weeks, you were right beside me
But I never made a sound
You're happy now, in your new kingdom
A land where you're finally free
It took me 4 years, but I finally realized
Perhaps you were running from me.
ŞİMDİ OKUDUĞUN
Written in Red
ŞiirA compilation of poetry I wrote during high school about sexuality, heartbreak, navigating the world as an autistic woman, dysfunctional families, grooming and abuse, and more.
