6 March 2024
Today was a better day and I finally went to both uni AND my class. I spoke out loud and I regret it sm. I sound like the dumbest bitch whenever I open my mouth it's so annoying. Anyways I felt good about it and now I'm crashing and I feel bad about existence.
Whenever I tell myself I just need a friend and then it will all be better I need to remember that I once had many friends and still everything hurt.
I feel an endless void of pain atm and I just want it to stop. Why does the inside of my brain feel so painful.
I liked it better when I didn't exist to the world.
Anyway, I feel like ending things but the thing is I had the same feeling yesterday and the day before and both days everything turned out to be actually okay, so I know this feeling will pass.. the question is will it be on repeat forever because I don't remember a time I never felt like this.. possibly before age 11 but I'm not so sure.
Everything will be okay though.
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MY DIGITAL DIARY : POETRY, THOUGHTS & JOURNAL ENTRIES PART TWO
Non-FictionHI LOVELIES <3 Welcome to the continuation of my first book "Poetry, Thoughts & Journal Entries" where I write at least something, no matter how mediocre, every single day! Feel free to go back & read or comment on any entries within my first book...
