I wonder what a man is like
when he's truly in love.
When he looks into a person's eyes
and glimpses an ethereal energy
reserved for above.
Does he write about them?
This person, the feeling?
What does he see?
I ask because I don't know if a man
had ever truly been in love with me.
Because from what I know
from films and books.
There's a change in the way he acts
that starts with the second time he looks.
But if love was a full meal,
I've only had the appetizer version.
Just a taste but more then enough
to develop a heartbroken sort of aversion.
So I'm left to wonder what it's like...
If he's nervous at the door
when he takes a second glance?
If it's because he needed to take
the sight of me in for just a second more?
Does he plan around it
or make plans with it in mind?
Does he leave secret messages
that he hopes I'll one day find?
In songs lyrics hastily posted in text messages
he drafted before they were sent?
When a man is truly in love,
does he always say what he meant?
Does he think of me and roses?
Roses that he should've bought?
Am I just passing moment
or an everlasting thought?
Does he drive home safer?
Does he hold space in his heart?
Does he take the time to kiss the pain
that's hidden behind such poetic art?
I wonder what he's like...
But that man I haven't met...
So if he wonders what a woman is like
when she's truly in love...
I don't know more than
just the fictional version of her yet.
