I have this fear,
that I'm gonna end up alone.
And what a shame that would be
if my heart is never known.
Because my love is like the sun.
Only seen in eclipse totally
or else it's "too bright to look at".
What a horrible duality.
To be wanted,
but not loved.
To be noticed,
but not seen.
I have this fear that makes it so
I can only ever dance between.
Who I could be,
if the change was given.
Who I have been,
when the effort is lost.
I have this fear that I'll stay alone.
Because it comes
at a much more peaceful cost.
But if I were to love and be loved in return,
I fear the sun would be jealous of the light.
My heart would burn.
Because for a long time
I've been preparing.
For a long time
I've been aware.
At times maybe too much so.
But I don't think that it's fair.
Once I knew a women
who is so lovely.
So kind and so outgoing.
Cries herself to sleep tonight,
because of a...
Because of a future
she's afraid of never knowing.
Because real love
never made it to the table.
That it must mean deep down
she's unstable.
But she's the reason that I am still alive.
So to hear that he said that...
I'll tell her to get in the car and I drive.
And she's crying in the front seat.
And I park on the side of the road
and cry with her, I do.
Because she has this fear
that she's afraid might end up being true.
And I don't know what to say.
But I speak nonetheless.
"Someday you will meet someone
that holds your heart as their biggest success."
"That holds you in their arms
in a way that makes you have to cry."
"Because you realize what you were afraid of,
has always been just a protectfull lie."
"That makes you feel like you're worth it."
"That makes you feel healthy
and keeps you in mind."
"That makes you feel like
he's the best of every man ever combined."
Because that woman went to sleep at two,
to hold the hand of many hearts.
"I hope someone loves you entirely,
not just in disorganized parts."
And she cries so hard
that she struggles to breathe.
But she wipes the tears falling
with a full heart on her sleeve.
And I don't know who got chosen
to be deserving of love.
But if she is not on the list,
there's nobody else listed there above.
And when she calms down,
she wipes the fear from her eyes.
"I won't and up alone..."
"That hope..."
"I'm afraid..."
"Never dies..."
