I walked to my car with a tight pain in my chest. I flashed back to a last week when I threatened Johan and felt like the air was sucked out of my lungs. I leaned against my car and took deep breaths. I hadn't felt so suffocated since that anxiety attack I got when I was 10. I got in the car and rested my head against the seat. What was my problem? To that I had no idea. I put the car into reverse and backed out into the parking lot. I usually waited until traffic let up but I was in a rush to get home and I barely knew why. I kept thinking back to his quiet voice when he said "You think I would tutor you after this?" He looked so helpless and defensive at the same time and I don't know what came over me, it was like the serious urge to punch him repetitively. I had to restrain myself and let him go. I slammed my hand on the steering wheel and hated myself. I may bully him-which I'm not proud of-but I've never hurt him like that before. It mainly consisted of shoving him into lockers and all. After that punch I could feel the horror at watching him gasping for air like that but I didn't stop. I was never that violent before in my life. God I was disgusted with myself. Look at that. A week later and I was still driving myself nuts over it. I did take the French test yesterday, and I thought back to that moment.
I had just left French when he came up to me. "Did you pass?" He looked down at the ground or past my head-anything but my face.
"Yeah." I said stiffly. I stepped around him, my hands curling into fists and walked away.
"Wait! Can you at least tell me what you got?"
I sighed and rolled my eyes then turned slowly around. "I got a 98 percent." Then I tried to walk away again.
"Well Jesus, you're welcome. I didn't have to take that time to tutor you." He said, obviously not remembering what I said last week. I turned around glaring at him. I stalked toward him with angrily, well I least I thought the feeling was anger. I grabbed him by the shirt and pushed him to the ground, pausing when I heard him cry out. I wanted him to fight back but as always he didn't.
"I'll say thank you when I feel like it." I said shoving my hands in my pockets before I made matters worse. I wanted to... pick him up of the for and make sure he was over which terrified me.
I was brought back to the present when it started raining and I realized I took a wrong turn. I signed and back up heading home the right way. I pulled up at my front door and ran inside as the rain has started pouring. I walked into the lobby and into the elevator, ignoring the greetings that were thrown my way. When the elevator opened up into our penthouse I walked into the living room and fell on the couch.
"Suzie!" I yelled.
The petite lady came running into the room.
"Yes s-sir?" She asked.
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Our Hearts as One
Teen FictionGlowing hearts are a rare occasion but not unheard of. After all it's not every day someone finds their soul mate. Johan Mull laughs at the idea of his heart glowing. What girl would want to spend forever with a nerd like him. Ted Baxter is the high...