Losing The Dream

08

"Do you want this?" I let out a nervous laugh when Sebastian pointed the crab. Gusto kong tumango pero 'di ko naman alam kung paanong kunin ang laman no'n. "Here." Parang mahika na nabasa n'ya ang iniisip ko at pinaghimay ng alimango.

"Thanks, you should eat too." I smiled. Tinignan ko ang lahat ng mga nasa lamesa nang kani-kaniya sila sa pagtikham. What's wrong with it?

"Busog na 'ko." He chuckled.

"Eat more! Kapag may klase na ulit ay 'di ka na makakakain nang maayos." Paalala ko at ako na mismo ang nag-alok sa kan'ya na isubo ang pagkain sa kamay ko.

Halos manigas ang katawan n'ya at gano'n na lang ang pagkalat ng init sa aking katawan nang ma-realize kung ano ang ginagawa ko. Dahan-dahan kong ibinaba ang kamay at marahas na huminga dahil sa kahihiyan. Ngunit bago ko pa man maibaba iyon at nahawakan n'ya na agad ako at isunubo.

Sunod-sunod ang naging bayolente kong paghinga bago tulalang kumuha ng kanin at isubo sa sarili. Nang mabalik sa wisyo ay nahihiya kong tinignan ang bawat isa. Pero parang lahat sila ay inaabala ang sarili sa pagkain na para bang ipinapakitang wala silang nakita.

"Bawi," Dinig kong mahinang bulong ni Mark pero siniko s'ya ni Lucas na daig pa ang nagdarasal kung makayuko habang kumakain.

"Ayaw ko na." Sambit ko nang dahil sa sobrang kahihiyang nararamdaman. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ko rin naisipang subuan ko s'ya. 'Di naman intrusive thoughts iyon! "I'll be right back."

Mabilis kong binaybay ang buhanginan pabalik sa bahay. Pagpasok ay malakas akong sumigaw at napatalon-talon sa hiya. Pakiramdam ko ay hihilingin ko na lang muna na lamunin ako ng lupa at iligtas mula sa kahihiyain.

Naghugas ako ng kamay at umakyat sa kwarto para maligo. I washed myself thoroughly so the sands and the sticky feeling will all go away. I wore a sage green tank top and a white high waisted short before going back.

"Oh, ba't nagbihis ka na? We're not done yet." Ani Dahlia nang makabalik ako sa cottage. Naligpit na nila ang pinag-boodlefight-an namin.

"It feels sticky, that's why." I shrugged and sat on the wooden bench.

"I see. Tomorrow is our last day here. The day has passed fastly." She smiled bitterly. I nodded when I realized that it's been weeks since we went here.

"Yeah, I wish I had more time to be here. Academic activities will make me busy now." I took a deep breath.

"I had fun with you." Nilingon ko s'ya, a smile is plastered on her lips. "I had the best vacation this year with you, guys. If you're not busy, let's meet each other in the city, again, and make memories." I automatically leered at her. I appreciate how soft spoken she is and I'm happy to be a part of her summer.

"I'd love to, Dahlia. I had fun with all of you, too." I said. My attention was caught when the boys came rushing to us. They're playing.

Mark is after them, chasing Jian, Lucas, Sebastian, and Isaac. I laughed my heart out seeing how thrilled they are to be catched by Mark who really has fast reflexes.

"Tang ina ka, Mark! Ba't ako lagi yung hinahabol mo?!" Jian shouted on the top of his lungs as he noticed how his friends always targets him.

"Come here, dumbass!" Lucas called Mark's attention and now he's the only one who's being chased.

I looked for Sebastian and I immediately met his seeking eyes. He smiled and waved a little. My eyes widened when Mark is coming towards his place and about to catch him.

"Run, Seb!" I shouted and laughed when he was alarmed to Mark's presence.

"They're having the time of their lives." Dahlia spoke out of a sudden. She's watching them, too, with a big smile. "Once we are back in the city, we will also go back in our lives. Serious and has no time to play." She shook her head.