𝐘𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐨𝐰 𝐅𝐥𝐨𝐰𝐞𝐫 || 𝐒𝐚𝐬𝐮𝐤𝐞. 𝐔

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟐𝟑

Tears roll down my face like a waterfall

The emptiness.

The silence...

Body shivering like a leaf.

Nothing makes sense anymore,

Why?

Why does this heartache never abandon me?

Alone...

Vulnerable...

Worthless...

"Why can't I avoid sensing this pain..?" I whisper sobbing.

All I wanted was to be home.

Where four walls were filled with laughter and love.

"Is it too much to ask for?" I whispered wiping tears rolling down my cheeks.

Questioning...

As if someone will answer them...

As if someone will pull me into their warm embrace.

I gently place my hand on my stomach "maybe this misery is the cost of my mistake. I'm a killer after all, perhaps I deserve this suffering. "

The pain seemed awfully unbearable.

Gut-wrenching sobs tore through my chest. Body wracked with an onslaught of sobs and tears.

Resting my head against the wall, I let the tears flow freely.

"Shut up! Just shut up!! You lying stupid whore!"

"You're so stupid, I can't believe I fell in love with someone so useless.! You can't do one shit right!

"You have no one..besides me. Remember that. No one loves you! You'll be alone if I leave you!."

"I pay for the food you eat! If you want to continue eating, earn money or starve!"

"Whore.."

I cover my ears with my hands as the voices in my head became louder.

"Surprise! I'm pregnant! You're going to be a father! I'm so happy!"

"What now?"

"Yes, you heard me right! You're going to be a father dummy."

"What? No! What the fuck! We can't have a child right now.."

"W-What do you mean?"

"it's too soon. I'm not ready for that kind of responsibility."

"B-But-"

"Please... stop...Stop...stop. I don't want to recall it. It'll only make me feel more miserable...".

The sound of wailing and suffering echoed throughout the house.

"I'm heading out, find a solution to get rid of it."

"It?? It's our babies you talking about!"

"Babies? What the fuck did you say?"

"We are having twins. I have the ultrasound if you want to look-"

"Get rid of it"

"Listen, I know you're scared, but if we both try to make this work-"

"I said get rid of the problem."

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry. I had no option, I never wished to do it." I cried holding my stomach.