We are the fallen angels (bvb)

Confessions

Chantelle's POV
I can't believe it.............
I'm pregnant.
But I thought Ashley used protection there's only one way to find out. I walked towards the living room where I found the guys all sat on the couch talking.
"ashley" I said my arms crossed and looking down on him
He looked up and smiled
"Yeah?" He said now confused because of my face
"May I talk to you for a second please?" I said walking out the door waiting for Ashley
Ashley then came out and stood in front of me
"What's up?" He asked still confused
"Did you use protection?" I asked sternly
Ashley's face went red
"Of course I did why?" He asked his face getting redder and redder
"Well some how I'm FUCKING PREGNANT!!!!!!!" I said raising my voice
"Now I'm going to ask again. did. you.use.protection?"
Ashley hung his head and whispered
"No" he looked up at me and I slapped him across his face
"YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND I DONT WANT A CHILD DID NOTHING I SAID TO YOU BEFORE WE DID IT PROCESS IN YOUR TINY HEAD?" I shouted all the guys had come out to see whats up
"But I though..."
"Oh you thought well don't think I don't want to have a baby somewhere like this it's not fair for the baby" I said a bit calmer
"Wait what's going on?" Asked andy
"Ashley got me fucking pregnant" I said staring at him while he looks at the floor again
"Ashely you did what?" Andy asked
"I didn't mean to I thought i didn't need to use protection I-i-i"
"Ashley did you not think about what it could be like for the baby to live somewhere like this?" Asked jinx
"No I didn't because I didn't think she would get pregnant I would have used protection other wise" Ashley said looking up tears sprung in his eyes
I didn't look at Ashley I was too upset I didn't want to see his stupid face any more.
"Please Chantelle I didn't mean to I thought I could have you know pulled out before" he fell silent
"I know what I did was wrong not just for you but for the baby and I promise I'll be there for you no matter what" he said reaching for my arm
I pulled my arm away from him and looked at him tears running down my face.
"No I can never forgive you for what you have done you don't understand that I can't give birth to a child somewhere like this with hardly any food, water anything we hardly survive how are we supposed to care for a child and what about the actual birth we haven't got the equipment for it" I said now looking down
"I'm sorry Ashley but I can't be with you any more were through"
"Please no Chantelle please I love you please don't leave me I'm sorry I'm so so so so so so sorry please I love you so much I can't live without you" he said tears falling from his face and he fell to his knees begging
"I'm sorry" I said and walked into my room
"Chantelle"
"Dude I think it's best if you leave her give her time alone to think and stuff" cc said pulling ash away
I sat there and just cried and cried until I cried myself to sleep.
"How can life get any worse" I said before falling asleep.