We are the fallen angels (bvb)

I dont know what to do anymore

Chantelle's POV
I don't know what to do anymore. I'm going to have a child in a god forsaken place like this without a father because I got pissed off I mean can you blame me yeah some people give birth to children and there not at the hospital but at least they can call an ambulance I can't. I can't get it checked for any problems or get all the stuff it might choke on in it's throat out none of it because I had to get fucking pregnant in purgatory.
I guess it's my fault as well I should have made sure he was listening and he was using protection but he should have listened anyway and if he wasn't sure ask me if it's okay to use protection it not. I don't know what to do anymore.
I sat on the bed tears in my eyes thinking everything over when there's a knock on the door. I wipe my eyes with my hands and say they could come in. I thought it would be Ashley coming begging for forgiveness and asking if it'd be his girlfriend again, but to my surprise CC walked in, shut the door, and sat on the bed next to me.
"You alright?" He asked
"no not really how could he do this to me think it was alright to do it without protection because he 'thought' he could pull out sooner" I ranted looking down I could feel the tears in my eyes welling up.
"This is Ashley the guy who thinks every girl in the world would fuck him. but you know he didn't mean to and right now he's out there crying and not eating or drinking and I'm not blaming you for that but I just hope it shows he does care and he wants you back" cc said looking at me
"What him not eating or drinking makes out he wants me back don't think so it's either for attention or he's just being stupid and making himself ill" i said looking away
"How can you say it's for attention the dude doesn't want to talk to no one"
"Attention seeker" I said
"RIGHT THATS IT!!!" He shouts picking me up bride style not to harm the baby he walks me out of the door and towards the sofa. I struggle to get away because I know what he's doing and it isn't going to work. he places me in the couch and tells me to wait there and walks away.
later he's walking in with Ashley wriggling around in his arms trying to get away and places him next to me.
"You two are going to talk or I swear to god I'll make your life's a living hell" he said and walks away
We sat there in silence not even looking at each other until Ashley broke the silence.
"Hi chan" he said quietly. chan was my little nickname for him to call me but in this situation it doesn't help.
"Hi and don't call me chan" I said sternly
"Sorry about everything I really didn't mean to get you pregnant" he said now barely a whisper
"I'm not sure if that's good enough sorry" I said not looking at him
"You know no matter what you think of me I'm going to love this kid with all my heart and even if you don't love me anymore I'll love you and the kid forever with all my heart"
"I understand that Ashley and I want to love you again but I don't feel like I can trust you or that you actually care sometimes it feels like your using me" I said tears in my eyes
"I promise you I would never ever use you, you are the love of my life and I would never take advantage of that and I'm sorry you feel like you can trust me if you ever do just tell me and I'll change please Chantelle please take me back" he said begging tears threatening to fall from his eyes "
"I'm not sure ash" I said still not sure
"Please I love you and I will love this child no matter what" he said tears now falling
"Okay ash I'll take you back" I said looking at him
"THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ILL BE THE BEST DAD EVER I PROMISE!" He said jumping up and hugging me
I laughed then hugged him back.
"I love you too ash" and he kissed my cheek
"Is it okay to come in or am I gunna have a lamp thrown at me" cc yelled we laughed and told him it was alright
"Yay the love birds are back together" andy yelled and ran over to us hugging us we laughed and hugged him back
"So what's happening with the baby?" Jake asked
"We're keeping it and were going to raise it as best we can" I said smiling
"Yay I'm going to be a uncle" cc said
"How are you going to be a uncle?" I asked
"I'm Ashley's band brother so I'm an uncle we all are" he said
everyone cheered and started talking about what they were going to do with the kid when he grows up.
"I'm going to teach him drums"
"I'm going to teach him to sing"
"We're teaching him guitar"
"No you ain't my son/daughter is going to play bass" Ashley said glaring at the guys
"You ain't if she/he doesn't want to none of you are pressuring him/her to play or sing got it" I said jokingly glaring at them
"Yes Chantelle" they all said bowing their heads
"Good" I said feeling proud
I'm not nervous about having this kid anymore I'm excited to see my child and see what it can accomplish.