𝑤ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝒎𝒖𝒓𝒅𝒆𝒓 𝐶𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑠 𝐾𝑛𝑜𝑐𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔

𝑐𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑𝑛'𝑡 𝑙𝑖𝑣𝑒 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢

𝐶ℎ𝑎𝑟𝑙𝑖𝑒 ℎ𝑒𝑛𝑑𝑒𝑟𝑠𝑜𝑛𝑠 𝑝𝑜𝑣 (𝑐𝑎𝑟𝑎𝑠 𝑓𝑎𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟)

More than three months ago my daughter cara Henderson wound up missing in the arms of someone else, and I blame myself completely. It should have been me with her and yet I wasn't, I had thought my job was more important and couldn't go back to that. Looking back now I didn't realize I had missed so many memories with her and now seeing it I...hated it so fucking much.

Sitting in caras bedroom I look for anything, any sign of where she could have gone. No matter how many times the detectives scan this room I feel like I missed something, anything. Any notes or clues about it, but no matter how many times I check this room I still feel as if I couldn't do more, that it was enough.

She was my beautiful baby...I had left her in the hands of a stranger because work was that important to me. And yet I grew to trust Rory and found out he had killed himself...I had basically lost my brother and my daughter...what was the point of living anymore? I had lost the things I loved so deeply...so when you lose it what's your purpose anymore?

Pulling out my phone I wipe heavy tears from my eyes as I play caras voice message, she had left me it a few years ago and I've kept it ever since.

"Hey dad it's cara! Um..so...I'm here but I don't see you? Hopefully you don't miss it going into high school is a big deal for me. There is a really cute guy but I remember what you told me about staying away from guys and focusing on my studies so I'm doing that...anyways I'll see you when you get here, I love you dad" the voicemail clicks as it ends and i remember that day, she was starting her first day of high school and wanted me to be there for it.

Staring blankly at cara's bed I tried to decide what I wanted to do. I could wallow for the rest of my life...or do the detectives jobs and find her, or try too...I didn't teach cara to give up, so I don't need to either.

(Quick little authors note, I'm definitely having more fun writing about cara, john, and Travis that's why this chapter is a little short!)